Jesus Culture!!

Somedays I just need to believe!!

When life throws you lemons... fight back!!

Two of my favorite singers. Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston. So I enjoy this song. I enjoy getting something out of it and it gives me hope. I feel like I'm just dragging on sometimes having more self pity parties then doing something to change the crap I feel that is dragging me down. It's time I just throw that crap away.

Church has helped me heal and it seems like I've been crying more the last few months but I need it. I need to heal and going to church has made me see what I need to let go. I need to let that burden go. I need to feel whole again. I need to stop feeling like I'm not worthy.

I'm all over the place emotionally and one of these days I'll get it. The sun will come out tomorrow. Until then I'll be soaking up songs like this one to remember what's important. Take care, Peace!!

Merry Christmas!!

Something New!!

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you’ll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

These are some of the lyrics to the Song Reflection sung by Christina Aguilera from the movie Milan. I feel like that so often wanting to show what's in my heart but feel like I have to hide who I am. I'm not afraid to tell the world anymore. I'm going to stand up and be proud to show the real me and maybe I'll need help expressing myself through one song at a time.



I believe in being inspired by love, honor and just believing in yourself. I may not have the answers and I get discouraged but I know I have mended a broken heart, seen horrible things in my lifetime but I want to share all the good too. Life can be great and our world could be great. We just need to accept life!!

That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence

Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion

Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence

If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence

That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence

This song from Enigma touches my heart. I cry each time I hear it. I feel empowered with a sense of belonging to the truth and just following your own way in the world. The message is so powerful and speaks from the heart. The return to innocence. I can never turn back time but I can only move forward. I want to return to innocence and to believe in my destiny.



Life is what you make of it. I want my life to be the best it can be. Take care, Peace!!

Positive Living!!

I don't know if I'm making a difference in this world. I'll never know but I'm sure enjoying my writing and I'll talk about my passions on life as long as I have breath to take. I saw this video on a blog I regularly read. I found it amazing and a beautiful piece of art.



Always believe in yourself and stand up for what's right. Take care, Peace!!

Beautiful People!!

I have some extra time today. The daughter is playing her Wii Fit and the son is taking his nap. My, when I'm on my music kick I can't stop myself.

Certain music makes me thinking about attractions of the opposite sex. I don't think that's any thing to be worried about. I was having a conversion recently with a friend and I don't think being a married women there is anything wrong with having attraction to the opposite sex when you're in a committed relationship.  I enjoy looking at good looking people.



I love feeling sexy.  I may not pull it off at times because I'm one big goof but I try and that's the important part I think. I told my hubby I may need hair extensions because I have a bob do right now. He likes long hair on me. I had long hair when we met but I chopped it off shortly there after. I grew it out after my daughter was born but then I got sick and sadly had to chop my hair all off. I feel more sexy with long hair. That's just me.

I got a few attractions to men right now.  I guess the major one right now is Joe Flanigan. I also like Ben Affleck. He was so hot in Armageddon. I have to thank my hubby on that one. Ben wouldn't have been on my radar if it wasn't for that movie. Over the years I kinda had a preference of whom I was attracted too and my hubby is the opposite to that. He's sandy brown hair and hazel eyes. I liked tall dark haired guys. Eye color didn't matter to me yet they had to have nice eyes. I knew this guy when I was younger and I thought he was so hot until he took off his sunglasses and the attraction went right out the door.

I even had attractions towards women too. Big shocker!! Not really. I can admit liking beautiful women. Jessica Alba for one. I just think she's hot. I think someone hijacked my music player. Music I downloaded isn't the same right now then when I picked them. Man, that sucks. I have to go fix that. Okay, back to feeling flirtatious. My hubby thinks there isn't any hope for me. :) I blame him really. I didn't know who Joe Flanigan was until Stargate Atlantis. Thanks to my hubby for introducing me to SyFy. It's all his fault!!

He knows I choose him. We're best friends and we know we're important to each other. When my hubby and I first met we used to flirt all the time. Those were good time or more like we still do it. Memories!! My hubby is a sexy babe like all the other guys I'm attracted too. The list goes on and on!! Why I'm going to post this blog entry is beyond me. I must have gone mad!! Take care, Peace!!

Getting back into Music!!

I just love You Tube. I can find music and my all time favorites on there. I love Chicago. I have their greatest hits. I used to listen to this group over and over again.  I found the video of one of my favorites from them.



I have no sappy sad story behind this song. I just love this song. I could make up a story about this song but nothing. I enjoy great music. I didn't care they were a bunch of old guys. I just like their music. Like I got my son into Journey. He loves their music. I can put on Journey and he gets full of smiles and my daughter likes grooving to Abba. I'm feeling like today is going to be a great music day. I'm pulling out all the old tunes of my youth. Here's my all time favorite Whitney Houston song!!



So many nights listening to this song and my gosh, I used to sing this song like crazy. It never gets old. I used to sing this song for my son when he was a little baby. It used to calm him down before bed time.  The Bodyguard was a great movie and Kevin Costner was sexy in this movie. I can't believe I just said that. No one needs to know I found Kevin Costner sexy. I kinda think men in Uniform are just sexy. That's how I roll :)

Oh my, look what song I just found. BRIAN ADAMS. Lets not mention he forgot the words to the "Oh Canada" during the World Series years ago. We may forgive but never forget. It was quite embarrassing. Okay, I just love this song and I even like DJ Sammy's version of it too. Here's Heaven!!



Okay, Yes I also loved the BackStreet Boys. Kevin was my favorite out of them all. Oh Kevin, and no I don't have a thing for guys named Kevin. Ha Ha!! I bet you would guess I loved the New Kids on the Block. What 14 year old girl didn't love the NKOTB? I bought my first cassette tape in Montreal Canada and months later I had to buy another because I played it so much it wore out. Yes, I said cassette tape!! We didn't have the fancy CD's we have now back in the late 80's. Okay, here's one of my favorite Backstreet Boy's songs. I have a few I enjoy.



Okay, two more songs. Here's a blast from my past. Reminds me of Puppy Love. Oh those were the days of crazy days and nights. I had to choose between these two Belinda Carlisle songs "Mad about you" and "I get Weak". They both are great but I choose Mad about you!!



STARSHIP: I loved this group. Man, I didn't realize how much I have aged myself. Oh who cares, great music is great music. So much cool music to pick from but I have to stop sometime. Maybe I'll do another music blog and post my all time favorites. Oh my, I'm all giddy!! Music is inbreed in my soul. Here's Starship:



I feel at peace today. I enjoy sharing the music I love. Makes me remember what's important in life. Take care, Peace!!

Rhema Marvanne

I stumbled across his child today. I want to share her with yah all. So beautiful and her gift is amazing. Here's her website http://www.rhemamarvanne.com/ God bless this child!!



Rhema Marvanne is a 7 year old Gospel singer. Beautiful and every way. Take care, Peace!!

It's a new thing I'm into!!!!

Last night I was going to be good and go to bed early but then the hubby was fixing his computer so we could watch our You Tube video's up on the TV instead of on our laptops. Then a video came up and we watched it. I laughed my ass off. This guy was so funny. His name is Philip DeFranco and he is the 23 year old host of the Philip DeFranco Show. The show has accrued over, 130 million views, and maintains the best audience EVER! The show is DeFranco’s soapbox to talk about everything and anything that interests Philip DeFranco. His website phillyd.tv has more videos so go check him out. It's not like I meant to stumble on this guys work. I was going to be responsible and go to bed early but this video was presented to us on our huge TV so I had to watch it. After we watched this video we had to watch more. So going to bed early just went out the door. We were hooked. The dude is funny. It's like he's on speed and I don't think he is but the way he talks so fast and goes from one topic to the next is just too funny. What is a SAHM supposed to do? I'm taking a break from Jon and Kate plus 8. I enjoy the discussions but I just need something new at the moment. I'm tired of Gosselin's Without Pity AKA GWOP with their harassing Pastor's and bitching about exploitation when in fact they are screwed up people who need to get some therapy. I have no problem with Jon and Kate Gosselin and I like watching their show but I just need a break from all the snarking for awhile. I enjoyed my time writing my opinion on GWOP's counter blog Gosselin's do not need our Pity and the women there were more level headed. Plus if I tried to write an opinion on GWOP it won't go through because they are one sided which if you hate The Gosselin's your comments get through. You got it!!! So it just happens I found this dude and I'll check out his career more often from now on. This guy I think is a genus and the stuff he comes up with making fun of what's happening in the moment is just Brilliant!!!! Well the last thing I'm getting into is the show called The Doctor's. It's my new Dr. Phil. It's a panel of Doctor's taking about medical stuff. My bff told me about it and how she likes this show so yesterday it happened I put the kids down early and I just happened to check out what was on TV and it was coming on after the Bonnie Hunt show so because I trust my bff in great entertainment I decided to check it out. I think I'm hooked on this new show also. So much change and new interests. I have to spice it up once in awhile so things don't get boring. Jon and Kate plus 8 isn't going anywhere soon so I'll lurk and read but I won't be as involved as I was the last few months. I made my blog with Adult Content protection and I think it's a good idea for I do have adult content on here at times. Take care, Peace!!!!