I'll always will remember you!!

I'm having a rough morning like I woke up cranky, moody and sleep deprived. I have so much guilt in my heart this past month. My younger sister 5 years ago passed away from an overdose. She overdosed off of Meth and I couldn't save her. Mind you we lived thousands of miles apart but still we talked all the time on the phone and through email. I didn't grow up with my sister because I was adopted but over the years before her death we got close. She was struggling with life and we had long talks on the phone into the night. I was an ear and shoulder she could talk about her life and where she wanted to go. I cared and loved her like we've known each other our entire lives. It was a hard time for me when she died. I was emotional with joy of having my daughter to saying goodbye to my sister. The month of April 5 years ago was hard for me. The reason I feel guilty about her death is I feel like I should have done more. My words weren't enough to save her. I wanted to be there for her and I feel like I failed as a big sister. My sister was confused and I thought she was doing good until the near end she felt doing drugs was her answer to her problems. Life was just too hard for her and my support wasn't enough to keep her safe and for her to make the right choices to stay away from the drugs. It breaks my heart to know end. I miss her laugh, I miss talking to her. The last time I talked to her I was telling her how her little niece was doing. I was telling her it was safe to have a baby when you're a diabetic. My sister wanted a baby and we would talk long hours about babies and her dreams of becoming a mother. She just didn't get the chance to and her life ended to short. I can't talk anymore the pain of her death is too much for me right now. I'll always remember you my angel in heaven. Take care, Peace!!

My final goodbye to Atlantis!

This is my dedication and thanks to the cast and crew of Stargate Atlantis. I know the show is not yet over with more memorable stories to go this season but I wanted to do this early so I can have a slow goodbye to this great favorite show of mine. It made for a great Friday night of entertainment and has it's final goodbye as a TV series with 100 great episodes. Stargate Atlantis was the spin off of Stargate SG-1. An international team of scientists and military personnel discover a Stargate network in the Pegasus Galaxy and come face-to-face with a new, powerful enemy, The Wraith. The Ancients used to be an advanced human race with advance technology. They are the original architects of the Stargate network and the builders of Atlantis.

It was an adventurous 5 seasons getting wrapped up in a Scifi world exploring a distant galaxy encountering vast challenges and meeting great friends. Finding the lost city of Atlantis the team learned a vast network of civilizations within the the galaxy linked by the Ancients. The story lines confront dangers, mysteries and enemies like the Wraith who feed off human life. Each season you learned more of in dept of each character and the friendship they learned amongst each other. It was fun falling in love with some of the characters and then hating certain others but in the end they all worked together as a team to get the job done for their survival as a human race fighting enemies like the Wraith, Replicators, the Genii and also a Wraith hybrid named Micheal. Each episode would bring you farther into the storyline and drawing you into there world to explorer and fight enemies they didn't know. It was a great show and I will sadly miss it. Good news a Movie is in the works. I want to introduce some of the cast and crew behind this great series and if not for them and the chemistry between the Actor's this show would not be the success it is. Joe Flanigan plays pilot Lt. Colonel Jon Sheppard and the Military leader of the Atlantis Expedition and also possesses the rare ATA gene, which enables him to activate devices created by the Ancients. David Hewlett plays Dr. Rodney McKay and is the Chief Scientific Advisor for the Atlantis Expedition. With his quick mental reflexes he has saved the team on countless occasions once you get past his arrogant personality. Rachel Luttrell plays the leader of the Planet Athos in the Pegasus Galaxy. She serves the team well with her ability to sense the Wraith's presence and she is their alien liaison. Torri Higginson plays Dr. Elizabeth Weir and she commanded the Atlantis team for the first several years and won the respect of everyone on the expedition. She was brilliant at brokering international treaties in the U.S. Government. Paul McGillion plays Dr. Carson Beckett and was Atlantis's first original Chief Medical Doctor. He discovered the Ancient Gene in humans and was also an expert with Wraith Genetics. He had a tragic death in season three but later came back as a clone of himself made from an enemy named Micheal. Rainbow Sun Francks plays Lt. Aiden Ford and once served as second in command until he was addicted to a Wraith enzyme and went rogue. He had some guerrilla like strategies against the Wraith until he went missing during an attack against a Wraith Hive Ship. Jason Momoa plays Ronon Dex a runner for the Wraith until he was freed by the Atlantis team. With his physical presence and a now trusted member his approach is kill first and ask questions later. Before Ronon joined the team he was captured by the Wraith as a target of a Wraith hunting game. Jewel Staite plays Dr. Jennifer Keller taking over the newest position of Chief Medical Director after Dr. Beckett's passing. She has to figure out her place within Atlantis and also among the rest of the team main members. Amanda Tapping plays U.S. Air Force Colonel Samantha Carter already a veteran of SG-1 is reassigned as the Commander of Operations at Atlantis when Dr. Weir goes missing. With years of combat experience with the Elite Stargate program she provides the Atlantis Team some unmatched military backup. Robert Picardo plays I.O.A representative Richard Woolsey and was chosen to succeed Col. Carter to becomes the newest Commander of Atlantis. His crossover appearance from the long running SG-1 brings his Bureaucratic personality to the Atlantis team and realizes sometimes you can't go by the book. With special appearances by the wonderful Actor Richard Dean Anderson reprising his role as Major General Jack O'Neill and Michael Shanks reprising his role as Dr. Daniel Jackson, also Christoper Judge reprising his role as Teal'c and all from the crossover series Stargate SG-1. Over the time of the series Stargate Atlantis had wonderful Actor's with guest spots contributing to the great in dept story lines and adventure within the Pegasus Galaxy. Connor Trinneer, Beau Bridges, Michael Beach, Kate Hewlett, Jill Wagner, Mark Dacascos, Gary Jones, and Robert Davi. Including reacurning roles by Mitch Pileggi, Chuck Campbell, David Nykl, Kavan Smith and Christopher Heyerdahl. I am sorry I couldn't list all the actor's who had a guest spot seeing how their were so many of them. Thank you for your great characters and the contributing to a wonderful series. I would like to thank some people Robert C. Cooper, Brad Wright, Joseph Mallozzi, Paul Mullie, Carl Binder, Martin Wood, Andy Mikita, William Waring, Alan McCullough, John G. Lenic, N. John Smith, Alex Levine, James " Bam Bam" Bamford and countless others who worked on this show. The cast and crew who were behind the series did a marvelous job making the show the success it was. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0374455/ This link you can read all the people behind the making of the show Stargate Atlantis. It was a fun ride while it lasted. Thank you!