Life is too short for this shit!!!

Okay,I'm on day 3 of having the flu. At first I thought it was just a 24 hour bug that wasn't all that bad until Thursday mid-morning I couldn't keep my eyes open. I called the hubby and asked him to come home because I was neglecting the children. I just couldn't get my ass in gear to do the simplest thing and thank god he was able to come home so I could sleep and sleep is what I did. I woke up around dinner time. That night I realized my bones were hurting and not only were they hurting it felt like someone was taking a knife to them and stabbing it in my spine. I was thinking this can't be normal but brushed it off as just having a bug because I actually wasn't running a fever. I asked the hubby if he could call the grandparents if they could come over to take care of the kids on Friday because by this time I wasn't feeling much of doing anything let alone taking care of two children so the grandparents came over Friday. I woke up this morning freezing and a fever. I felt like someone ran me over in the night and then left me in a ditch. I missed our cousin's 3 rd birthday party. At least the hubby took the kids because I would have felt guilty if they couldn't go because of me. I need to turn this health around because I have lots to do. The daughter's birthday party is next Saturday and oh the house is in shambles. I think I need to hire a Molly maid, oh that's right, the hubby has all next week off. I'll make him work all week doing what I can't. I've been debating if I should go see a Doctor but frankly, the last time I went to the ER they hooked me up to some drip and bitched to me about my diabetes. It was a waste of my time. I hate stupid Doctor's. I hate the condescending Doctor's who think they know everything and you're telling them different and they are acting like I'm the professional and then they find out you were right from the beginning. The one thing I learned about having several chronic Diseases I know my body and what my body reacts to so when a Doctor thinks they know me better than I know myself I can get a little bitchy....okay, I can get extremely bitchy. Typically you're in the ER because you're sick so waiting around, getting poked with needles, taking medicine that doesn't do shit is not my idea of spending several hours of my time. I better be severally sick like when I had walking pneumonia during the last pregnancy. I knew I needed medical intervention when I couldn't breath or when last summer during the Day out with Thomas when I was throwing up water and burning up. I was a mess. I'm at stage 6 right now and I'm on cranky but I can deal with the aches and pains for now. It kind of gets worst during the night so God help me get through the night because I don't think the hubby would appreciate having to drive me to the ER during the night when we all could be sleeping all nice and soundly. In the last couple of hours it feels like one of my cats scratched the back of my throat which isn't good because unfortunate for me I tend to get Bronchitis because of the Asthma related to my allergy to dust mites. Oh how fun for me!!!! Life is what it is but I take my Advair so it's all good but once in a while that slippery bug gets past the wall of medications I take and this bug is trying to bring me down. Not on your life bud but then again I may lose this fight and have to spend a few hours in the ER. As much as I hate having to go my body is beat up from the Anemia and Low blood pressure. I want to cry like my almost two year old son does on a regular basis but I can't because then my head gets clogged even more so I'm crying in my head. I'm a mess but like anything else in my life I'll pull through. Damn it, I'm feeling like shit but I don't want to spend the night in some hospital room hooked up to some IV. I just want some strong painkillers to knock me out for a few hours. Pain free, all I want is pain free baby!!! Pain Free!!! Take care,Peace!!!