Insomnia and Are you prepared?

Well it's late on Wednesday night and I can't sleep. I should be sleeping seeing how I have to get up at 7am tomorrow morning for my son's 2 year wellness check up. Yes, my son is officially 2 years old. He turned 2 last Friday and we had a small party with cake and he blew out his own candle to the surprise of his big sister who wanted to do it for him if he couldn't. She was not happy but forgive him when she got her rather large piece of cake. I think I can't sleep because I have a million things going around in my head because of my emergency preparation checklist. Sorry if I start to ramble and my thoughts don't make any sense. I tend to think quicker than I can type so sorry in advance. I have so many thought about if my family is prepared if something happens and we end up stuck in our house or we have to evacuate and do we have the supplies for that? I have lists upon lists of things I want to get like last night we went grocery shopping and got extra non perishable food. I stocked up on extra toilet paper, paper towels, Lysol sprays etc. I have 3 large bags of supplies just in case of a emergency but it's like I'm thinking I'm forgetting something important for my kit. Someone will think I'm going a little crazy about stuff like this but hey, I would rather act crazy and be prepared then have an emergency like this Swine Flu (sorry the H1N1 influenza A because we don't want to discriminate against the Pig) being a major problem and not being able to take care of my family. I want to be prepared and like last fall I had a major panic attack because I felt we weren't prepared so I made a list and one weekend we went and bought everything off my list. I felt a little better after but realized we weren't prepared. Far from being prepared but my family is now. If you go to the CDC (Centers for Disease Control) website here :http://emergency.cdc.gov/preparedness/ there is a section to help prepare yourself for an emergency. I actually got my checklist from the American Red Cross but they are both the same sort of lists. I like to be over prepared and I keep adding to my kit and they say to have two week worth of food for each family member so I want to have 3 weeks worth. My children are unpredictable when it comes to food like after a growth spurt they can eat more and sometimes they don't eat a whole lot during the day. I know I will never be 100% ready for anything because my brain doesn't want to go there and really it's just depressing thinking about the what if this happens? and so forth. No one really wants to think about the sad outcomes of disasters. I don't like thinking about it so I don't but like I said it doesn't hurt to be prepared as much as you can and hey if nothing ever happened most of the stuff my family has from my shopping spree we can use for camping when the kids get older. So it's like a win win situation. I would do anything for my family even if it means I'm acting like a crazy paranoid disastrous freak who can't sleep and stock piling my emergency kit and making lists of things I feel I need to have. So my question of the night is : Are you prepared? Take care, Peace!!!

Busy week and New Obsession..oh my!!!!!

Well Easter weekend was great and my mother came into town Sunday night. I was a little stressed but I think I was reading into something which wasn't there out of habit. I'm just used to the past and had my guard up and I don't need to do that anymore. I think I'm not angry with my mother anymore which is good because the pain was horrible before. I can say I'm over the pain. It has taken me years but I feel like the chain has finally been released from my heart and my mother and I can have an adult relationship. Don't get me wrong I will never forget what she has done to me but I forgave myself and allowed myself to heal my heart. I say I forgave myself and not my mother because I wasn't allowing myself to forgive. I was afraid if I did start forgiving I was condoning the abuse. Once I realized I could forgive and not forget the pain slowly lifted from my heart. It's not like I was afraid to let go but more I was afraid I was accepting the abuse if I did. If that makes any sense.

The kids had a wonderful time while my mother was here and the son said Grandma. It was so exciting. He'll be two next Friday and he's finally having interest in wanting to talk. This past week he's been trying more sounds and trying to speak more words. I think he's going to be talking soon and I can stop worrying my little head. It's so hard when the daughter was talking great by two so I was worried my son wasn't going to talk. He didn't have any interest in making any sounds besides crying and screaming before. He rarely said momma and Daddy so this past week was exciting hearing him trying to make more sounds.

I got to start reading my new obsession the Twilight saga. The hubby and I had seen the movie a while ago and it was good for a teen flick and then moved on. On one of our weekly trips to Target I decided to pick out a new book and happened to see Twilight on sale so I picked it up. I heard the book was better than the movie so I wanted to check for myself. I was kind of curious what the hype was all about like when Harry Potter got popular. It's like you have to read the book so you don't feel like you're missing something being left out I guess. I didn't start reading it at first because I was too busy getting the house ready for my mother so the hubby started reading the book first. He was into the third book before I began the first to give me a head start. I read books fast and sometimes I can read a book in one day depending how good the book is. I found some time this week to sit down and start the first book. I would have to say the book was way better than the movie by far. The movie Twilight was a good movie and entertaining but the book was so much better and I couldn't keep the book down. Lucky my mother was in town or I would have seriously neglected the children. I finished all four books and was pleased to get my happy ending. I was wishing through the whole series I wanted my happy ending. I would have been so upset if I didn't. I don't get when the love story turns out bad and that's why I don't read romance or love stories because most not often then not the girl doesn't get the guy. I don't like tragic love stories because they just tear at my heart. It's the happily ever after I love and if it doesn't happen I get disappointed. Who doesn't want that?

On Thursday night the hubby and I had a date night and we went to see a movie Fast and Furious. It was a good movie and entertaining and after we were done I wanted to go and buy the Twilight movie. While we were at the store I bought the soundtrack too. I would have bought the 3D poster but I would have felt foolish because I'm not a teenager anymore plus where in my house would I put it so I just downloaded a Twilight Wallpaper for my computer instead. I want to know more about this saga. The second movie New Moon is being filmed and will be out in November. The hubby told me a friend of his said the author Stephenie Meyer was going to do the first book in Edwards point of view called Midnight Sun. Apparently some of her transcript from Midnight Sun was leaked over the Internet and she's not going to finish it. I'm quite disappointed. You can go to her website and read it. http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/. She has the first 12 chapters on her website and I loved what she had written so far. It made the other book Twilight better and the movie made more sense. Edward made more sense after I read Midnight Sun the first part anyway. I just had to laugh when the scene in the movie when Bella walked into the Biology Lab and met Edward for the first time and then putting Edwards point of view with it.....lets just say it was funny!!!!!! I would think of ways to kill her too. I just fell in love with the story and the characters are intriguing. Like Edward tells Bella in the movie she's his own brand of Heroin. The Twilight saga is like mine and I have to have more. I got sucked into the books, movie and whatever will come of Bella and Edward. I have to talk about Alice. She was one of my favorite characters. I would have liked Alice if she was a real person. I didn't think it would affect me so much after reading the books. Geez, it's only a couple of books but the storyline was so good and it's wanting me to have more. Like Edward said in the movie "Yeah. Um... I had an adrenaline rush. It's very common. You can Google it." So I have been googling for information about Twilight...maybe I should go to bed now.................................................................... :) Okay Take care, Peace...

There is no hope for me so save yourself!!!!!!!! Oh the horror...I got bitten by Twilight..Ha Ha Bitten..get it!!!!! Okay anyway maybe someone out there is obsessed or more obsessed then myself... I have to ask a question...are you obsessed with Twilight after reading the books? Do share? Leave me a comment!!!!

It's Good Friday!!!! and some celebrations!!!!

It's Good Friday and my 100 post. I can't believe I wrote 100 posts from September. How did that happen? and like I have that much to say. I love writing even though I suck at spelling and grammar and I'm going to celebrate this fine accomplishment by doing nothing but clean the house and get ready for my daughter's special day dinner. We celebrate Good Friday other than the religious aspect of it by giving our daughter a day to appreciate the day she was born. 4 years ago she was born on Good Friday which the hubby and I think is something special for her. It's like a second birthday without a party. We will have cake, presents for both kids and some quality time enjoying this fine day. I think when I started this blog I didn't know how much I was going to write or what I was going to write about. I did know I was going to be real. Everything I talk about from just everyday stuff to the real personal private stuff I wasn't going to mask my life behind someone I'm not. My blog is real and that's how I like it. This is my life and I'm not ashamed to share it. So yeah me, I manged to get to 100 and hopefully people who come here learns nothing but some craziness. Thanks for enjoying the ride called my life!!!! and for my regulars and you know who you are thanks for coming back to read what I have to say...thanks so much for coming to my blog. For any newcomer, I hope you come back if not that's alright too!!! Enjoy your life!!! Take care, Peace!!

I'm busy but not really!

Thanks to Gateworld I've been waiting for the pictures of Joe Flanigan from last weekends Stargate Convention. I checked last night and they were up...Finally!!!! I can't believe I forgot about the convention especially when I first found out Joe Flangian was going to be there. The hubby thinks my obsession of this man is funny. I can't help it because he's hot..you know good looking. I just have to say his wife is one lucky women.

I keep thinking if I ever met the man how would I act. You know embarrassing the hell out of myself by saying something stupid or tripping over my feet and falling on my face. I keep wondering...I may end up just not saying anything or I'll babble. I do that sometimes when I meet someone and neither I am shy or I'm so nervous I'll talk my face off. I guess the conclusion is I will end up making a fool of myself some way or another. Maybe it's a good thing I haven't met Joe Flanigan. I wouldn't want to be not cool :)

So the rumor's are the Stargate Atlantis movie will be filming in the Fall. They neither are going to film SG-1 first and Atlantis second or vice versa but they are still planning to do both movies. I'm so excited..and they will be released some time in the summer of 1010. I haven't been keeping up with all the updates surrounding Stargate as you can tell I totally forgot about the Vancouver Convention but I have been keeping an eye on when the Stargate Atlanits season 5 is coming out on DVD. It's coming out on June 30th. You bet I'll be buying that!!! Take care, Peace!!

Wake up..I miss you!

So the last few days I have kept the daughter up while the son takes his nap. He's a sleeper and he's like me and if he doesn't get his sleep he turns into a cranky butt. The daughter liked this idea staying up and not having quiet time but now she's realizing she actually is missing her brother. She keeps asking me when he's getting up. Oh so funny seeing how she could care less for him any other time. Me, I'm not liking the not having "me" time. I enjoyed the few hours both kids were sleeping but that's what this mom has to do. I need to keep the peace some how so if I have to give up my time well that's what I have to do. It's been pretty good and the daughter's bedtime is slowly getting earlier because of it, it gives the hubby and I more time for each other. So we all kind of win!!!! It's all good. I just found out the Stargate Convention is this weekend in Vancouver, BC. I'm acting like a baby but I wanted to go. Oh how I love Stargate and it's not because I could meet Joe Flanigan really...okay I admit it I could have met Joe Flanigan this weekend. I totally forgot about this convention and they do it every year so maybe when I remember to go Joe Flanigan will be there. Not all the actor's show up but it's fun not that I have ever been to a convention. The hubby and I were going to go to the Burbank Convention for Stargate last November but decided we didn't really want to spend the money. One of these days we'll go to one. I could have met Joe Flanigan this weekend!!!!! Well, I'm tired and Gilmore Girls is on ABC Family at the moment. Why didn't I remember? and I'm always good on keeping up with this kind of news. I guess not!! Take care, Peace!!!!