July 7, 2009

Who are you?

It's a pondering question to who is Indianprincess. Well I'm just a women with a wonderful family who has struggled to find herself in a world of chaos and experiences. I never try to be someone I'm not. I use Indianprincess as a handle to protect my family and myself because this is a world full of the crazy. It's a world full of crazy who feel they need to know everything about you to bully you, make fun of you or just stalk you because they feel the need to fulfill something they are lacking in there own lives so what can you do from people like this?..... you use a handle plus please don't poke the crazy and eventually they go away or move onto someone else. Alright because I've been to hell and back many of times and I'm in a state of peace within my heart and this is me. I've gone down paths in my life I can say were tormented and destructive but I managed to find the strength to over come some bad times and live the life I always knew I had with in me. I wouldn't say I found God but I learned with an understanding to be the best imperfect person I can be with a good heart and live a life I can appreciate and respect. I wouldn't call myself wise because who makes a wise person anyway. Does having an education make you wise or having life experiences make you wise? I kind of have both an education and life experience and neither has made me wise so have I not learned any thing or does being wise have a higher purpose to make someone gifted beyond their years to considered being wise? I just know I'm where I'm supposed to be and maybe my purpose in life is to help someone by telling my story or just to listen. So I'm asking you, who are you? What is it that you feel you're not getting in life and why haven't you changed it? Maybe you're like me where you feel you are where you are meant to be. It's a great feeling knowing you are content to just be the best person inside and out. Sure money matters and living with more but knowing right now at this moment in time you can say if I died right now I lived a good life. I have lived a great life. I learned how to forgive. Forgiving myself the most was the hardest for me but one day I decided to just do it and let go of all the pain and anger I had in my heart. It wasn't that hard because before it was hard to hold on. I made the decision to just let it all go and my life wasn't so complicated anymore. Who knew pain and anger was the reason I wasn't happy with my life and the consent struggle to search something that I had in my heart all along but was denying myself to accept. We all have our life journey's and it's our choice as humans to decide what path to follow. I decided to follow my heart and to make choices for myself which will give me the most inner peace. I know I'm a good person and I know I someday I will look back on my life and say I did it right. I found my purpose and I guess you would call it the meaning of life. So I am Indianprincess who is just another person doing the best I can in a world full of crazy!!!Take care, Peace!!!!

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