My brain is on overdrive!!

So this morning I grabbed the diet rockstar in the hope some how I will feel the effects of this drink wondering if I will finally get some energy from the stuff. I like the taste of it and that's all it's done for me. So today was like any other day just hoping like I always do that some how maybe today I will feel good. I've started taking some new pills (which I'll talk about on a later date but today I won't disclose this information right now) and I haven't really felt the effects yet until today. I finished this diet rockstar and in an hour my brain just decided to run and run and run like I'm on speed. My body on the other hand hasn't caught up yet but holy cow, this is something new. I don't know if I should be excited or not. My brain is like Hello, lets get this party started!!!! I kind of was in a funk this past week. I don't know really what it was about but I was feeling not so great like I'm seriously worn down, I have anxiety like theirs no tomorrow, facebook is driving me crazy and some how I just want to get out and do something. I want to do something but when you're body doesn't feel up to the challenge it's hard to accept. I get frustrated that my body doesn't allow me to just get up and go. I'm tired of feeling tired so can you believe somehow a miracle has happened and just maybe these new pills are doing it's work. I hope so but it's too soon to tell. I can't wait until I feel like my old self again. I was telling my daughter the other day Mommy used to be good at sports like Soccer, Downhill Skiing, Swimming and Basketball and she looked at me like I was crazy. Yes, I used to be good at something and now, it's like that part of my life didn't exist. I miss that life where I used to play sports. I loved exercise and feeling good I'm doing something. Soon, I hope!!! I need a vacation and sometimes I feel guilty for thinking I need a vacation like being a mother I have to be super 24 hours a day and my life has to be all about my family. I love my family and my kids are my world but in reality they can drive me up the wall that my head wants to explode so wishing I could have a break isn't too much to ask I don't think. I just need a couple of days to regroup and then I'm good to go again. I already think I'm going to ruin my kids lives and as much as I can give I still feel like I can't live up to my own expectations of a wife and mother. Some say I'm too hard on myself and to give myself a break but like I said I need a vacation so until that happens I'll be hard on myself. Take care, Peace!!!