Politically Correctness!!

Politically Correctness is a term which denotes language, ideas, policies, and behavior seen as seeking to minimize social and institutional offense in occupational, gender, racial, cultural, sexual orientation, disability, and age-related contexts.

Okay, I get it but what I don't understand is then which is it I'm supposed to use when I'm referring to myself so I don't offend myself or offend others when I refer to myself as Native Canadian/French Canadian. Is my assumption correct? Is calling myself Native Canadian/French Canadian the right Politically Correctness? This can leave many people confused and even a bit frustrated like myself.

When I was younger I was considered an Indian. Yes, I was an Indian way before I knew I had some French Canadian descendants. So I referred to myself as an Indian. Then I come to realize I'm not an Indian because of East Indian's from India. So now what?  What am I then?

Then I realized I should be considered as an American Indian...okay, that's fine with me. I'm an American Indian but wait, that's not correct neither...I'm starting to get frustrated for the definition of who I am supposed to be. Am I First Nation? Am I Indigenous? which means "from this land". Am I just considered just "Native"? I'm getting confused or am I Aboriginal? I have no clue on the definition of what is the correct term I am supposed to use about my ancestry.

Can I just say I'm Human? Or do I have to label myself like I'm First Indigenous Native American Indian Asian/Canadian and French Canadian/European From France. I'm a little of this and a little of that. What do I say so I don't offend anyone? It's so complicated so I'll say this: I won't take offense if you call me Native Canadian/French Canadian and please don't take offense because I refer to myself as this. Take care, Peace!!

Rhema Marvanne

I stumbled across his child today. I want to share her with yah all. So beautiful and her gift is amazing. Here's her website http://www.rhemamarvanne.com/ God bless this child!!



Rhema Marvanne is a 7 year old Gospel singer. Beautiful and every way. Take care, Peace!!

Those Days!!

I'm been in a sour mood all day. When the hubby came home so he could take our son to school he asked me if I was okay.  Not really. I'm not okay but I will be alright. Here's Evanescence: Kinda how I feel ...sort of.



One step at a time!! Take care, Peace!!

I'm working on this!!

I have FEAR and it can be from anything really, the economy, natural disasters, war etc. I panic when I feel like things that are happening today scares me and I like to be prepared for anything. I like to feel like I'm in control of any situation that comes my way. I don't like being side swiped on life. My fear comes from my childhood. I realized where this fear has come from and now I'm working on it. I would prefer not to live like this. The more I read about things I don't want to read because it's down right scary I freak out. I really don't want to pass off my fear to my children.

I want to work out a problem and solve it like right now. I'm almost finished my emergency kit. I hope all the preparations I have done will be enough and sometimes I doubt myself like maybe I don't have every thing I need to survive or my families survival. Yes, I worry about things like this. What happens if this scenario happens? Do we have everything we need? What happens if the economy collapses and we have to survive by Bartering? What's more valuable..food, water etc. Do we have enough?

I used to think my fear is what drives me to be a better person but now I'm kinda thinking my stance on this. I think it's nice to have some fear in your life but not when it's runs your life. My fear is running my life and I'm working on changing it. My hubby is great when I get on a panic rant with my fears because he's my rational rock. He works with me to see everything is going to be okay. I guess I need to have more faith. When you are young and the only one you feel you can count on is yourself it's hard to give up a little of your control away. It's not easy and sometimes I even resist myself but I'm slowly understanding to not be so fearful I need to give up my control on things I have no control over.

Sure it's nice to be prepared for things but not going overboard like I have been doing. It's not healthy. I truly believe I will manage to survive if anyone of my end of the world scenario's happen. I know in my being I can be a leader to get through anyone of my scenario's but I want to be prepared. I need to be prepared but with life you truly will never be prepared until something happens. I need to believe and have faith I will be alright. I need to lean on my faith a lot more. Just let it go!!

Trust in things which will carry me to make the right decisions like trust in my intuition. Knowing I'm doing the best I can and when things come up to make the decisions that will better the situation then crumble to the ground because it's hard. I got this and it's not easy and I'm working on it. Take care, Peace!!

I'm a Work in Progress!!

I haven't gotten this far in my enlightenment by myself. I have surrounded myself by good people in my life. We can be selfish in what we want for ourselves but we also need to have good support from the people around us. You as an individual need to help yourself and have a strong moral foundation before you can start helping others.

I have picked my own broken self off the ground may of times in my lifetime. Sometimes I didn't know if I could pick myself back up. It was a struggle. It was pure uncontrollable pain of self despair. I don't know how many times I had to convince myself to keep moving forward. I found hope in my heart even though I didn't believe it. Somewhere deep down in my soul I got the strength to keep going. To keep the hope within my life I had to fight my self doubt I could be happy someday. Someday I can be happy. Someday my dreams can come true. Someday I will understand what love feels like. It was something I held onto even if I was afraid to trust it.

There are many good people in this world. I know it's hard trusting in yourself let alone trust in other people when you're in a state like that. Feeling damaged and changing your situation is the hardest thing you can do. I know I fought changing and giving up some of the control a very hard thing to do. It took me years to finally realize I had to change my outlook in life. I had to start trusting people who truly wanted to support me on my emotional healing. It was hard and it took me along time to just give trust a try.

Now I understand I have gotten to a place in my life where I can look back and learn from it. I learned no matter how hard you try to carry on with life it's hard work. You work on your life. If things are not the way you want them so go change it. I will keep working on my life. I will try and make good judgements and decisions to better my emotional self. If I make a mistake then I'll pick myself back up and start over again. I will learn and make things better. You do what you have to do with what you have at the time. Sometimes it's not going to be easy but knowing you are working towards a healing soul then it's all worth it in the end you made progress to achieve happiness.

I was lifted up by the people I surround myself with. I lean when I need to and I express my feelings when life gets hard. I ask for help and I ask for people to listen. I read books and get inspirational advice and to keep me moving forward. I don't know about you, struggling with life is exhausting, tiring and energy draining. I don't want that. I just know I learned about what I want in life. I learned what makes me happy and I also learned who I want to become. I learned to get to know..me!!

Getting to know who you are will give you a better understanding of what you emotionally need and want. It's a progress and sometimes I just didn't want to work on the effort because it's sometimes hard looking into yourself and see all the mess within you. My inner soul was ugly and I had a hard road a head of me but slowly I worked on myself. When it got difficult to face I gave myself a break and worked on other things and then came back to the most difficult situations I couldn't get passed. Slowly over time things didn't hurt as much, things started to look better. Learning to just let go was hard for me. It's hard when that's the only thing you know how to survive but I saw what I could have and it give me a better understanding I can do this. The pain of healing is a lot better than the pain from self destruction. You slowly learn to love yourself and when you do you realize life starts awaking for you like watching a flower bloom. It's beautiful.

It's the best peaceful and emotional part of wanting a better life. It's like looking at the world with different new eyes and coming out of the dark is amazing. It's like going outside and feeling the sun on your face for the first time and breathing the fresh air. How refreshing it feels. You walk with confidence knowing you can conquer anything you put your mind to. That's life and a pure blessing!! Take care, Peace!!

Work Hard and you will Achieve!!

Yesterdays entry I said "I'm on a quest and journey I never thought I would be going on." I've been doing a lot of soul searching wanting to get the best out of my life as I can. I don't think it would have happened 10 years ago or even last year for that matter. It's a time in my life I'm finally realizing I have a purpose and a gift to share with the rest of the world.

We have experiences in our lives which change who we become. We experience choices and make decisions which can effect our outcome. I truly believe things happen for a reason. I'm coming self aware of this process. Things have fallen into place like it's just freaking me out at times. I shouldn't be freaked out about finding my life could be set in stone way before I was born. I don't know and I've been on this new quest to find out. It intrigues me and I'm curious to know what my journey holds.

Things that have taken place in my lifetime and all the good and the bad choices I have made lead me down this path. I experienced things I wish I had never experienced yet at the same time those things have shaped who I became. I'm not proud of my life choices which caused me pain but if I didn't experience and went though them I don't think I would appreciate my life right now.

I remember back in my most darkest times. I've talked about it before on my blog of self destruction and my feelings about it with my eating disorder, when I was raped, my childhood abuse, in my first abusive relationship in my late teens. I have touched a little about that time. I would like to share more. It was a difficult time for me and I struggled with that period in my life until I started looking at the bigger picture of my life.

It's the feeling like you're a victim. I was a victim of life of my own doing. I choose not to be a victim. When you allow yourself to be in a state of personal despair and allow yourself to crumble at every corner of your life when tough decisions need to be made because you can't deal I call that being a victim. Yes, I allowed myself to be the victim because it was easier to cry as a victim then face the hard truth of my surroundings.

Being a child of abuse you don't really realize you have choices because they were chosen for you and you do the best you can do to survive to live through it. I have done unspeakable things to survive. I would share them and my experiences with you but for the safety of my family and my sisters I will not disclose them to you. The reason I won't disclose this part of my life because I'm not here to punish anyone and I'm not here to cause any more pain. I want to express the hope everyone can over come darkness.  I will talk about the emotional aspect of what I went through to share and let people understand being a victim only furthers your own personal pain and as long as you don't forgive and allow yourself to move forward you will never heal your own heart.

I never wish pain and destruction on anyone. I would hope my children's journey will never have to deal with what I went through as a child, teenager and when I was in young adulthood. Some of the things I have witnessed and experienced to me were horrible and outright evil. That is something I would rather share that no matter what life throws at you, you have choices to deal with and be healed.

I think for 4 straight years I cried myself to sleep when I was in my teenage years. I was in so much pain it was hard to breath. I didn't want the day to end because the next day would be another day of hell. It was the feeling like my life was slowly being squeezed out of me and I didn't know when the day would come when I didn't know if I could take that one small step to move forward. It was crushing and devastating to know that I felt like no one was listening. I was living in an empty shell of my own existence. You feel so alone like no one can truly understand your thoughts and feelings like the old saying goes "shit happens". Shit does happen but it doesn't mean we can take it as it is. We can take that shit and throw it away.

My journey so far has been a process of up and downs. Right now, I'm self aware of my life choices. I have seen miracles in my life, I have surrounded myself with wonderful good hearted people and I have forgiven the people who have done the greatest harm to my being. There were reasons I went through those tough years. I didn't understand while I was going through it at the time because I was too broken to see the reasons why I needed to live through it. Sometimes when you're in a dark place it's hard to see that life is beautiful because everything in your being is diseased with only the hardship of your surroundings.

I truly believe now I went though those bad destructive times so I can have a better understand of life. I needed to understand the emotions, the pain and the sorrow to truly appreciate life is truly beautiful. I do have a voice and to voice my life through this means of expression to share what I know to people who are needing support or who want a better understanding to peoples humanity. I see life as a gift and to treasure the gift I was given. Love and acceptance of others because we're all human.

I didn't get this far in my 35 years of life by not working hard. I worked my ass off because I knew if I didn't then it would be a travesty. I would waste a perfectly good life because I didn't want to work hard and to learn and to grow. I have learned to love myself in my heart. I have learned to let go of the hardships that were keeping me in chains of self destruction. It wasn't easy. My journey wasn't easy and I have struggled just to let go. I have had long nights just feeling the hurt feelings from my life. I went though self pity until I faced what was keeping me from moving forward.

I accepted my life can be great if I just let go. My greatest gift is understanding hard work and in the end I will achieve an existence of the greatest life of all...love, hope and acceptance of each other. Take care, Peace!!

Power is in the eyes of the beholder!!

President Obama's word will become worthless as our dollar will be worthless until "we the people" make the Government accountable for their regulations and laws by allowing them to see what they do affect every person in this country. We are divided as a Country because we allow the Government to divide us by our ideology and race. No one is Superior than another unless we allow them to be.


Business owners will not be able to hire employee's and invest in this Country as long as President Obama insults them and over-regulates them and threatens to tax the hell out of them. It has nothing to do with being rich or poor. The Obama Administration needs to understand people can only strive in our culture if they stop regulating and taxing people to death. We can get our economy going by lowering taxes and giving back the decisions to Businesses who will hire people and in return people will spend money.

Isn't that what we want? We have hard working people losing their jobs wanting to work but when the Government is pulling out bullshit in the disguise of wanting to help the American people it doesn't create jobs but punishes them for wanting to work.

As long as we're divided "we" as a Society can not move forward. Blaming everyone else isn't going to solve problems. I do not respect a President who talks out of his ass who says one thing and then does another. I don't respect someone who uses intimidation and points figures to other people when they don't take responsibility for their own actions. It has nothing to do with Race and has everything to do with the persons character of who the person is about.

Don't we want people to strive in our culture? Do we want people to start Businesses so they can hire employee's? Do we want less people needing Government assistance? Why have we lost our Manufacturing capabilities in this Country? We need jobs, we need prosperity and we need to make decisions for ourselves with smaller government and less tyrannical power.

I don't mind paying my taxes and pay my fair share to help people who are in need but what I don't get is the Government bleeding us dry and not making things better. I see "Change" but not for the better. It would be different if raising Taxes were actually helping the situation and our economy.  The more the Government takes the less the people have to help themselves.

Why is the first thing our Government does is cut costs to our Children's Education? Educating our children should be one of our first priorities and maybe the Government should take less piece of the pie and use that money for important things then lining their own pockets making them richer. Isn't sharing the wealth what the Government wants the average American to do? They can talk the talk but they WILL NOT walk the walk. Ask yourselves Why? Why isn't President Obama wanting to help this Country because forcing the Health Care Reform, The Stimulus, Financial Reform etc hasn't helped us recover but has only made things worse yet they keep blaming what they are doing on Bush, and anyone they feel are calling them out on their bullshit.

The American People are not the enemy and the Government needs to understand we want to live in a Country where our freedoms are not fringed upon. We want them to do there job to protect our civil liberities. We want our borders secure, we want our child to strive and not have to pay for our mistakes. The Government just needs to back off so "we the people" can work, spend money and make decisions for our own lives without our hands being held behind our backs. We make this Country great not by what the Government does but what we share and give back to this Country. The Government forgets they work for "we the people" and spend "the peoples" money. Remember that in November 2010.

The USA is the last stand of freedom in the world and until you understand President Obama's ideology of why he does what he does. You need to know for real what he stands for and then make up your mind if you agree with it for not. It's not attacking the Man but it's finding out if he's doing right for this Country or dividing us further. You just need to know where you stand and where your breaking point is. I mean by breaking point is how much you want the Government to be in your business, how much are you willing to give the Government in taxes, what you think the Government should be in control of and when it's time to say "it's enough and back off Bitch!!" Take care, Peace!!

A Mental Vacation is what I needed!!

I'm glad I took a break. I'm back feeling all rested and my brain is clear. I'm on a quest and journey I never thought I would be going on. I'll talk about that soon or maybe I'll talk about it later. I have so much to talk about and things I would like to say and I'm not in any hurry.

I had a great time with my mother which to me I feel like those things that happened are in my past and I finally understand life is what you make of it and I finally moved on. I can have a relationship with my mother in the present then struggling with issue from the past. It's refreshing and I feel blessed.

I don't believe in violence, or intimating someone to get what you want. I believe in the truth and being an individual to understand we are all different yet we can get together to help each other out from the goodness of our hearts. I don't believe in Collective Salvation. I don't believe we have to change our history to have a better life. I don't think we need to have our Governments getting involved in our personal lives. I believe we can achieve success by hard work and determination to want a better life then blaming others for your own short comings.

It's no one's responsibility to change your life or make it better. That's why I have a hard time understanding why when things get tough the race cards get thrown out like that's the only way you can hurt someone. I am no racist because I support the Tea Party and what they believe in. I care for people and I will help as long as you want to help yourself. We as a society need to work together then working against the freedoms and liberties we were born with.

I understand we have different ideologies and what we want for our lives. I understand what I believe in may not be what you believe in and I respect that. I want a better understanding of humanity and this is my own personal journey so I educate myself. I read things I don't want to read but I feel I need to understand different view points and I feel I need to learn from all sides of the spectrum for a better understanding of what other people believe in. I don't think I want to change people too see the world how I see it. I don't want that. Why? It's not my job to tell you what to do with your life. I'm just writing out my own journey and you can take out of it the way you want to.

I believe in a God and I have faith and the more I learn and read my eyes are being opened. My views change and sometimes I will say something I truly believe but then later on I will change my mind. I'm a work in process. I don't think I'm a better person from you just because I have faith in a religion. I don't believe I'm a better person than anyone else. I can only be better than myself. My salvation is my own. My relationship with God is my own personal journey to take. I don't think being the best person you can be is the wrong thing. I have faith in humanity and the more we learn and want to learn we can be saved by doing what's right with the understanding we're all good people.

Look within yourself and ask questions of what you want. Do you want your Government to control your life? What is it that makes you happy? What direction do you want your life to take you? Blessed is only if you believe you are blessed!! Take care, Peace!!

Don't judge I'm on Vacation!!

I'm on Vacation from my brain this week plus my Mother's in town. I may have something to say later on but right now everything is all jumbled up in there I call my brain. I sure overloaded my brain so maybe it's a good thing I'm taking a break. I'm finally giving myself permission to take a break. I feel I can never take a break but for once in my life...I'm going to. This is healthy living and who needs drama all the time. I'll write when I write and who knows I may write again today. Time will tell!! Take care, Peace!!

I overloaded my Brain!!

With all the reading I have done in the past month I kinda overloaded my circuit. Oy, it's giving me a massive headache. I can't seem to think well. I don't think this is a good thing. I need my brain or maybe I don't but still. I still have a lot of books to read this summer and the hubby and I are wanting to order some more books we feel we should read also.

It's so much information in a short period of time with so much to sink in. I forgot what school was like. I don't know if I will be able to do it. The hubby told me to slow down since I read Atlas Shrugged in 10 days. That's a huge book and a lot of information in it. I did it and now I'm on another. I believe it's important and my civil duty to read about things that will give me more insight into this crazy world.

One of these days I should take a break from reading for at least a week anyway. I love reading so I may get withdrawal but my brain is important HA!! Take care, Peace!!

I'm all set for summer!!

I finally bought the bathing suit of my dreams. It took me a few years but I did it after feeling like a shriveled up old prune. I have to remember my body isn't the same since I had kids. I'm not a freak of nature like the Celebrity moms who look great after having their babies. I could be but I don't want to spend day and night obsessed with my body getting it back into shape. I clearly should but the reality I'm a lazy ass so my body is my body.

So a few years ago I got my bottom bikini and I loved it. It makes my hips look a little bigger which for me is a plus because I have no hips or a butt so finding the right top has been tanking my self esteem. I have lost my best assets after giving birth and I do miss my boobs, I miss them I do. I was gifted with great boobs but after kids they kinda didn't come back to where they used to be. My girls are lifeless and it's shameful.

So now I'm working with what I got and it doesn't help me in finding the best clothes that work with my new shape. It's so frustrating but today I did it. I found the top bikini to go with the bottom bikini. I was dreading the changing room. I was afraid to try on the bikini tops. I tried on a plain black one first because black always makes me look a little thinner. This black top was out and if I only had my old boobs back it would have been perfect. I didn't feel too secure so I tried a vertical stripped top and at first I was like this one is going to make me look like a wide load but I liked the cut of the top so why not? I was kinda sweating at this point. Would I be disappointed?

Holy smokes!! I couldn't believe my eyes. I was like this can't be...I look great. The strips makes me look like I have curves. I have never in my life looked like I have curves. I was a screaming school girl all giddy and excited. I rock, this top was made for me. Then I was like oh no, what if this top doesn't look good with the bikini bottoms I bought? I was like I have to buy this top. This top fits me in all the right places. It makes my boobs look good and my waist look smaller. I can not think about the pieces not going together. So I bought myself a new bra too which has nothing to do with my bikini dilemma because I'm on a mid life boob crisis and finding bra's to make my girls look good has been a challenge but I realize push-ups are my friend.

So back to my bikini dilemma. I came home and I'm still afraid they will not fit together. Well, it's my day of days. I was standing on the side of my tub looking across at myself in the mirror and I was like this is my year!! I did it. I found the perfect match and life needs to be this easy. I like easy and I'm on a high. Shopping was a great experience and my two girls are finally happy. Take care, Peace!!

I forgot we own a Wii!!

The hubby and I pulled out the Wii Fit tonight. I was kinda scared seeing how I was told I didn't use it for 533 days. I had things to do so I can understand why I didn't use the thing. I gained 3.3 pounds since then and my BMI is Normal. My age was calculated at 37 which is good considering I'm 35 years old. Who needs two years anyway? My hubby and I decided we really need to get into shape. My goal is to be able to play sports with the kiddo's. I do want to get back into downhill skiing. I'll figure out how to pay for it when I get back into shape. I had some mean strong legs when I was younger but years of poor health, anemia I kinda have sticks for legs but I'll get them back. The kids of mine love doing leg squats with me and actually like doing what I'm doing. I love when the daughter keeps saying "I feel the burn mommy"

It's one of those things I keep putting off. I have goals and we did spend the big bucks for this Wii fit so we might as well start using it. I remember as a kid I loved sports and not to seem conceited or anything but I kicked ass with sports with natural talent expect for Tennis. I never really cared for the sport but I loved soccer and downhill skiing and swimming. I was a great swimmer. I want to show the kids that mommy can do this stuff instead of sitting on the sidelines. I feel good well not the health good but good I'm on the right path. I'm thinking good thoughts and I always finish what I start so yeah, for me!!! Enjoy life, stay positive and have a great time!! Take care, peace!!!

Life is a Balancing Act!!

For the last few months I've been doing something unconventional with my health. I stopped all prescription drugs. Some people would think I have lost my mind especially with all the medical problems I have listed on my plate. I didn't come to this decision lightly but I was getting tired of all the chemicals I was putting into my system.

I just found out recently one of the many drugs I was taking called Reglan for a digestive problem I have and it's not pleasant to know this could have happened to me the longer I took it and I don't know at this point if I have any of these side effects yet. Here's what I learned "Reglan: Gastrointestinal Drug May Cause Permanent, Involuntary Movements of the Face and Extremities Reglan, also called metoclopramide, is a drug commonly prescribed to treat gastrointestinal disorders such as gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD), persistent heartburn, nausea, vomiting, and a feeling of stomach fullness. However, the drug has been shown to cause tardive dyskinesia, a permanent and severe condition which causes uncontrollable movement of the extremities and the face."

How nice and I took that drug off and on since 2003. I stopped taking it last year around this time. The reason I just decided to stop all prescription drugs because I was getting tired of the Medical Profession giving me more drugs. It seemed like their answer to everything so I decided to put my health into my own hands and go unconventional with natural vitamins. I have found the last few months my health has gotten better. I don't know long term but dealing with health issues for the last 4 years and I wasn't getting any better. Doctor's didn't have answers and I was getting tired of all the bullshit. I had to do something so I decided to do something for myself. It was the best choice for me and I'm not an advocate for anyone doing this. It's up to you to make the choices for you.

There are three drugs I put into my daily life and I believe they have helped me get my body back to more stable. They are Chromium, Selenium and a Blood Builder. I also take vitamins for my Vitamin D Deficiency and I drink a daily cup of soup for my blood pressure. I eat a balanced diet for my diabetes. Once I feel even more better I'll start adding more exercise to my lifestyle. It's a process and I have more hope I can get my life back to where it was before Children. I think Doctor's are great and Nurses are even better because I've worked with great medical professionals in my past but for me right now, I'm detoxing my body from chemical drugs right now and going natural. I could change my mind in the future and go back to drugs but right now, I'm happy with my progress and what counts....I feel better and I'm seeing results. Take care, Peace!!!

Truth within you!!

Hope sees the invisible, feels the intangible and achieves the impossible. ~

While I'm sitting here I wonder, I wonder what I'm supposed to do. What can I do to help? Do I have anything of value to give? I keep asking myself over and over again what do I have to ofter back? Then something popped into my brain and I questioned it and I pondered over it to try and put into words what my heart was giving me. I didn't understand at first because it was so simple it didn't make any sense to me because it was so simple but what I can give is Hope. Hope? Yes, I can give to you all is hope.

I watch this world crumble in front of my eyes. I see hard working people losing their jobs downsizing their life to cover their bills and still not have enough. I see with my own eyes a deep sadness towards other human being being dropped to their knees because of all this struggle of power.

Then you have to ask yourselves what can I do for myself? What can I do? The only control you have are the choices you make. Sometimes pride gets in the way and I've had problems in the past and not asked for help because I didn't want to show weakness. Pride is not a form of weakness but a sense of strength. Your only self worth is from within not what the world is telling you. I have hope because I believe in something so valuable no one can take that away from me unless I give it away.

Have hope to be a survivor.
Have hope to see the good when life is throwing you lemons.
Have hope when you're looking at your bank statements wondering where the money will come to pay your bills.

It's the good in all of us to do what's right when everything around you seems wrong. It's that strength within you to get up and keep moving forward. You keep moving forward one step at a time and never give up hope that one day all your hard work will give you a sense of I told you so. I told you I still have hope. I told you, you could never break me as much as you tried. I think the powers that be who want you to believe hope is useless because they know what's best for you. They don't have hope and they only have needs.

We have hope and they have needs.

Why do I say that? I say that because if the powers who think they know what's best for you are only trying to control you and by controlling you they need your hope. If you don't have hope then they have won. They need your hope to win. They want you to believe they have hope to help you. They make their hope look really good like it's what you need. If you already have hope then you don't need what they have to offer. Is their hope any better?

The only power you have left is your hope within yourself. I'm sharing my hope with you to be strong against powers who want to take that away from you. Share your hope with others and stand with me.

Here's to the corrupt powers that be "Do what you want with me because I have what you need and I'm not going to give it to you as much as you try...sorry come back tomorrow!!" Take care, Peace!!

I'm awake now!!

It's seems like this Country is looking ass backwards. I can't seem to wrap my brain around the crazy thinking what this Government is trying to pull and the media in bed with them just to use it's power to change this Country for the worst because they are blinded by money and greed. It's like the Media is demonizing law abiding citizens just to prove a point to further their agenda of manipulation yet Toronto's G20 protester's were being threatened by the Police and brutality of those evil Police officers. Does this video demonstrate peaceful protesters to you?



They sure don't look peaceful to me and where is the Media demonizing them when Nancy Polosi was afraid of the Tea Party. I think she's afraid she'll lose her job for fighting for the wrong side. It's not rational to me. I never saw myself as an activist or wanting to protest anything but come on, being afraid for what the Tea Party is doing is Scary Nancy Polosi?



The Tea Party is bring attention to what this USA Government is doing so we can turn this Country back to it's roots of why the USA is the land of the free. I watched this Video of a Tea Party rally and is it frightening? I'm frightened when I see it with all those evil destructive people...Nancy be afraid!!! If Nancy's afraid of this next Video then what would she feel about the first video I put up. Which one would you rather be at? I say the second but that's just me!! Take care, Peace!!!