I'm all set for summer!!

I finally bought the bathing suit of my dreams. It took me a few years but I did it after feeling like a shriveled up old prune. I have to remember my body isn't the same since I had kids. I'm not a freak of nature like the Celebrity moms who look great after having their babies. I could be but I don't want to spend day and night obsessed with my body getting it back into shape. I clearly should but the reality I'm a lazy ass so my body is my body.

So a few years ago I got my bottom bikini and I loved it. It makes my hips look a little bigger which for me is a plus because I have no hips or a butt so finding the right top has been tanking my self esteem. I have lost my best assets after giving birth and I do miss my boobs, I miss them I do. I was gifted with great boobs but after kids they kinda didn't come back to where they used to be. My girls are lifeless and it's shameful.

So now I'm working with what I got and it doesn't help me in finding the best clothes that work with my new shape. It's so frustrating but today I did it. I found the top bikini to go with the bottom bikini. I was dreading the changing room. I was afraid to try on the bikini tops. I tried on a plain black one first because black always makes me look a little thinner. This black top was out and if I only had my old boobs back it would have been perfect. I didn't feel too secure so I tried a vertical stripped top and at first I was like this one is going to make me look like a wide load but I liked the cut of the top so why not? I was kinda sweating at this point. Would I be disappointed?

Holy smokes!! I couldn't believe my eyes. I was like this can't be...I look great. The strips makes me look like I have curves. I have never in my life looked like I have curves. I was a screaming school girl all giddy and excited. I rock, this top was made for me. Then I was like oh no, what if this top doesn't look good with the bikini bottoms I bought? I was like I have to buy this top. This top fits me in all the right places. It makes my boobs look good and my waist look smaller. I can not think about the pieces not going together. So I bought myself a new bra too which has nothing to do with my bikini dilemma because I'm on a mid life boob crisis and finding bra's to make my girls look good has been a challenge but I realize push-ups are my friend.

So back to my bikini dilemma. I came home and I'm still afraid they will not fit together. Well, it's my day of days. I was standing on the side of my tub looking across at myself in the mirror and I was like this is my year!! I did it. I found the perfect match and life needs to be this easy. I like easy and I'm on a high. Shopping was a great experience and my two girls are finally happy. Take care, Peace!!