Falling!

Sometime it comes in waves and sometimes it comes over like a tidal wave that over powers my heart. Anything can set me off, a movie, a song, something and anything. The complete sadness of pain it hurts sometimes to breath. I feel like I'm drowning within this sadness of pain. I have no strength to fight any more. I'm just here living day after day walking with this pain and who do I trust to ask to walk with me?

I realized my husband doesn't trust me and thinks I'm a junkie. I think I love him less for it. 

I would love to feel like I'm enough for him. I would like to feel loved, feel like I'm special and to be romanced once in a while. That's what I want, that's what I would love to feel from the father of my children. Life's not good right now and life is slipping though my fingers and sometimes I feel like I want to give up.

Story never ends. Take care, Peace!!