One year later!!!

It's been almost a year since I started this blog. It's been a year since I decided to start an online blog which I have been neglecting these last few months but like I said before I haven't had that much to say. My daughter starts school on Wednesday and my family has been sick for the last week and I'm starting to feel the pressure and I'm almost down for the count. I seriously need a vacation and November better come quickly because I'm losing my cool and frankly I love my cool so when I'll slowly losing it I find that pretty disheartening. I'm not that nice to be around when I lose it so seriously I need a break. I think the in-laws are going to babysit this weekend so the hubby and I can take a short break for one night. Looking back reflecting on my one year anniversary I have learned a lot about myself and the hardship I shared about my past to where I am today. It's been a wonderful journey and life is good even though the little things can drive me crazy it really has been a good time in my life. I am blessed to be me and I love my family so much. My children are the best even when they can drive me up the wall to no end. What is life if your children can't drive you crazy at times? It's part of life and their are days where I feel like a broken record or days when I feel like pulling out the little hair I have left or flustered when the kids are screaming in my ear when I'm trying to cook dinner or breaking up fights between the two kids but it's all in the name of life and family. The best days are when at the end of the day I feel like I have failed as a mother and my children curl up with me on the couch and gives me the biggest hugs and kisses they can give. Sometimes I feel like I'm failing as a mother but then I have to remember all I can do is be the best I can be and think realistically that not everyday will be good and not everyday will be a bad but enjoy the time you have in the moment. I shared so much of myself this past year from talking about eating disorders, telling you about my crush on Joe Flanigan, talking about my family to expressing myself with my thoughts even though I got a few emails from strangers saying I talk to much about private matters. Oh well, then don't read my blog is all I have to say to them. I talked about my health problems and right now I may have a cold the last few months have been getting better. I don't have that many Doctor's appointments and I'm going every three months for blood work so it's better. I have more energy to get things done and I'm not struggling on a daily basis so life is great or more to the truth it's wonderful. Thank you for coming on my journey with me. Take care, Peace!!!