Sliding into 2010!!!

I survived 2009 and looking back I could have done better so this year I will make more of an effort to be more understanding of a 4 year old and cherishing my time with my 2 year old who isn't old enough to talk back to me yet. I want to be a better wife and find the strength to live then struggling to just survive. That's what I want for 2010. I want to do better!! So goodbye to 2009 and hello 2010. So I haven't written in awhile and that's one of my goals this year to write more on this blog then 4 or 5 entries a month. I can do it!! So my daughter had the best Christmas idea for her father and with some planning it was on it's way until we hit a road block and that was the end of the perfect gift. So my daughter sat me down one day a few weeks before Christmas and told me what she wanted to give her father for Christmas. A picture of herself skating for his office at work. How proud of her I thought and she thought hard on this gift so the plan to pull this thing off was a tricky one at best. I haven't skated since high school and where to go to rent skates and where to go skating was a challenge at best but I found a place in a mall mind you so we picked a day, went shopping for the perfect outfit and went beyond and decided to take the local train there but once we got into the car on our way to the train station we realized how hard that would be doing it in the rain so we decided to just drive downtown Portland go skating and be home for my weekly phone date with my best friend. Well we got to the mall and it was busy with Christmas shoppers and when I went on the website the night before it didn't say they were having a Christmas Skate show going on so with two cranky kids we went and got lunch first. I think at this point I didn't think we would make it skating. The daughter was melting and the boy just wanted to lick everything in sight. It was just a crazy stressful situation and I really wanted to pull this thing off so after the thousand threat to go straight home we managed to get our skates on and off on the ice we went. I was surprised the boy really enjoyed himself but the moment we got on the ice we were told to get off so they could clean the ice. Holy, the daughter just took a one eighty and thought we were punishing her and by this time their was no patience in anyone of us so we just went home with no picture. We didn't get the chance for one picture and I know my daughter was crushed. I was a little crushed for her especially when she told me she didn't have any more idea's up in there. That was a bust but we all moved on and all was forgotten. So a few days before Christmas I got sick. I wasn't feeling so right like something was off and I decided to go see a Doctor because it was so close to Christmas I was afraid I would land myself in the ER on Christmas. I didn't want to disappoint the family by spending Christmas in the Hospital. So we went to Urgent Care but thanks to my HMO they don't service Urgent care anymore during the weekdays only at night and weekends. I had the option to go to emergency. I wasn't going to fork over $75 for a visit at the ER so I waited with my uncomfortable self until the evening. I went and found out I had a really bad sinus infection with inflammation in my ears, nose and throat. Yeah and I got some good drugs to clear it all up. Love the good drugs. So Christmas was actually a good time and we had a really good Christmas. My daughter found another great gift for her Dad and all was happy in her world. So for the last couple of days I've been trying to put the Christmas decorations away. Everything is off the walls and on my kitchen Island right now. Someday I will get the boxes out and actually pack the stuff up when I need my kitchen Island again. I'm trying really!!! Well for the last 2 years I've been doing bible study with a young gal who I consider a good friend now. We get together every week and talk more than bible study. She's a kind soul and my children just adore her to pieces. I wasn't much about faith like in Jesus before. I had some form of faith growing up but I never felt I needed anything more than just believing in GOD. So when she showed up on my door step wanting to know if I wanted to know more about bible teachings I said why not? So in the beginning I didn't care she was a Jehovah Witness and we started making plans for her to come over each week and I became more interested in the knowledge of the bible. A few months later after her first visit I was in the bookstore ready to buy my first bible. I was so overwhelmed of how many bibles are out there and the variety of bibles kind of scared me and there I was looking at the mass section of bibles to choose from so I decided to go on faith no pun intended here and I choose a bible I knew was my bible. I was so proud of myself. I enjoy reading it and at first I thought it would be all hard to read and old school teachings but what I have gotten out of my study and my interest in the bible I have come to realize I'll be okay. I have realized I just need to be the best person I can be and yes, I'm imperfect and I will make mistakes in life but learning to forgive, ask for forgiveness I will be just fine. So it's been two years now and in those two years our friendship has grown. She's a really good friend and we just don't chat about the bible. I realized it doesn't matter if my friend is a Jehovah Witness because she came into my life to share on my life's journey at first it was to study with me about the bible to becoming a really good friend. I enjoy her friendship. In the process I'm slowly learning about my faith in Jesus Christ and I'm having a better relationship with God. My friend is a blessing in a time in my life where I truly am ready to embrace God. So I'm sliding into 2010 with a new start and a new beginning. I hope you stick around on this journey I call my life. Thank you!!!Take care, Peace!!!