Comes crashing down!!!

This week has been a stressful one for me. The son got pinkeye and is on eye drops and I'm surprised he's taking the drops pretty well. I think he realizes they help his eyes and hasn't fought us like a sumo wrestler when we're giving them to him. This kid is strong and has been since birth like the time he kicked me when he was 4 months old in the leg and dropped me to my knees. You have to have two people holding him down when he's getting looked at by a Doctor. He hates it with a passion for anyone poking at him and he will let you know...oh he lets you know all right. It's the screeching pain in your ears and the struggle and it's not like you want your child to be in distress so it makes it twice as worse to watch this little boy struggle and scream with tears. That can't be a good thing. I wonder if I'm scaring this kid for life every time he goes in for a check up...maybe when he gets older it may not be so bad...lets hope!!!!! (Break) The reason this week is stressful because I have anxiety over my house. Things I let slide when I was at my medical worst is catching up with me. I look around the house and I can feel the blood rush to my head with stress. I shouldn't get stressed about these things but I can't help it. I really like structure and I feel hopeless right now because I don't have the energy to get some of these things I want to do. It's a no win situation for me with the back and forth within my head. I understand I had no control over my low energy but at the same time I feel like I'm the only one who does any of the cleaning. My hubby is great with helping me take care of the kids but when it comes to cleaning...he kind of sucks at it but is good at making more of a mess for me to clean. Sorry honey but it's true. I do have to admit I knew this going into our relationship so it's not like I didn't know about his organized mess until now. It just seems with two messy kids and a hubby I get so overwhelmed at times I snap. I have a full out hissy fit and its not pretty. I don't even want to get into how the master bedroom is like. My sanctuary is a storage dump at this moment with baby gear, baby toys, boxes of clothes and our two cats seem to stink more now then ever before. Every time I go by our stairs I can smell a fowl odor. It's not pretty and air freshener doesn't seem to help. It's been getting to me this week more then ever. Actually it's been getting to me for awhile but I was in denial before like I didn't want to admit I was a mess. I'm in a cleaning freak anxiety mess and wish I had a few days of serious energy so I can get some of this work done. I'm not there yet and it bothers me I can't just get this stuff done so my hearts not on some serious power trip ready to leap out of my chest. Oh my, life's kicking me in the ass this week. Take care, Peace!!!