All About my kids!!

Sometimes I have these moments in time like tonight where I'm just sitting in silences and reflecting on my life. Okay, I'm not really sitting here in silence. I'm listening to music trying to get my flow on. I'm trying to get my creative flow going. Sometimes I just need to write to get things out of my head but half the time I just don't know what to write about. I have so much stuff going on in my head it's so hard to just go through it all and sort out the chaos in my head. Life seems to be good for me right now. My health is on the mend as I'm not so tired all the time. I actually can do stuff without having to take a break every few minutes and it's good for my kids sake and I'm sure having a mother who can play with them more often then a few minutes here and there is like Disneyland to them. It's nice having this time with them acting silly when they are younger. They grow up way to fast. My 5 year old daughter already has her first boyfriend. I told her she can't have a play date until she cleans her room so when her little brother was at school today she whipped into gear and cleaned up her bedroom. She was determined because I made a deal with her if she cleaned her room I would organize and clean the playroom. That's what I get for bribing my daughter. What was I thinking? Oh right, trying to con my daughter into cleaning up her messy room. She showed me!! Her room was spotless and she even made her bed. I think she got the good end of this deal. So tomorrow while the daughter is at school I'm cleaning the playroom. I made the deal so I have to make good on my end. A promise is a promise. It's easier for the son to help even though he's only 3 years old. He's kind of like me in regards to having a mild need for structure. I just have to tell him where to put things and he just does it. The daughter is like me in a way when I get overwhelmed I don't know where to begin. I have a hard time organizing their playroom when she's home because it takes me longer to clean because she'll find something she thought she lost in all the mess and she gets distracted. Once I start to clean I just have to get it done and everyone stay out of my way. I'm on a mission to clean and get the job done and the son is also like me on having to get the job done. He's just easier to help me and the process doesn't become a struggle. It becomes a struggle when the daughter is in this mix because she can't help herself. She has to explain when, where and who gave her what toy. It just makes the time go by very slowly. If you don't pay attention to her she gets all drama queen about it so you kind of know why I do it when she's away at school...less drama!! I love watching my kids become the little people they are becoming. They both have parts of my personality. My son is laid back and goes with the flow but he needs structure. As long as things are done the way he feels secure he's fine. The daughter is determined to be right all the time, first at everything and when she doesn't get what she wants she lashes out and lets you know her feelings about everything. She also is so sensitive about life and she is contently worrying. If she's not beating up her brother she also loves and protects him. I hear her helping him with his words when she thinks I'm not listening. I'm so blessed to have two wonderful children. They have little part of me inside them and their daddy too :) I love watching them become who they will become. I feel blessed to be their mother especially the gift I feel they were given to me from God. They teach me every single day of the gift I was given and I hope I listen to the message they are telling me. They deserve to have the best in a world of unmoral destitute. I have to give and teach them some moral values they both deserve so they can be productive adults in a world of imperfection. Take care, Peace!!!