Why I'm misunderstood :)

I should feel flattered some people think I'm young for my age. The first time I was insulted in public I was taking care of my sisters girls and some older lady decided to let me know in not so nice words how shameful it is to be a teenage mother. For one, they were not my children and I wasn't even a teenager at the time when I was taking my nieces to the park. I wanted to tell this person where to shove her cane into but I didn't because my nieces were with me. I was taught to respect my elders and to look up to them as role models but not when they insult me and judge me without knowing the situation. I guess I had to pass this off as a life lesson that not every older person is a role model. The second time I was insulted for my age was when I was pregnant with my son. My daughter and I were sitting near our local grocery store in California where we would go for our daily walk and there were these two older women sitting close by. Of course, I could hear every word they were saying and it's like they were making sure I could hear them. This time I couldn't keep my mouth shut. I was sick and pregnant. I don't like being judged by strangers especially when they talk about you in front of your face. In so little words I told them I wasn't a teenage mother on welfare. I also said being a mother in my thirties wasn't so young to start my family. My hubby makes enough money so I can stay home with my children. They just gave me this look like I was lying so I took my ID out of my bag and said if you don't believe me look at my driver's license. I told them they should worry about themselves then talk about a stranger and her daughter. Those two women didn't even apologize but made excuses for themselves and went on a rant about so many teenagers get pregnant and live on welfare and how their money is paying for these young girls to raise their children. So I asked them how that was my problem. All they could come up with because I looked young and assumed I was another loser teenager abusing the system. Nice women and I feel sorry for their families and another life lesson of not every older person is a good role model. So I am flattered some people think I look younger than I am but I don't like being insulted and being judged because of it. It drives me crazy some people feel to give their opinions when you didn't ask for it. So I look younger than I am and sometimes feel misunderstood :) Take care!

Flu shots and Halloween!

Flu Shot season is upon us and last Friday I had a non medical appointment but I swear I get talked into getting shots I could wait a little bit longer. RN's have a way to talk you into anything with the whole guilt tactics. Some just talk you to death so you just give in just so they will stop talking. Last year I got the pneumonia shot and a tetanus shot just on talking to death with the guilt trip combined. I was sick for days with those two shots and now I have the flu shot I'm going into low grade fevers and feeling like I just want to curl up in a ball and disappear. I don't like flu shots and tomorrow my son's 18 months wellness checkup and both our kids will get their flu shots tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to having two cranky kids on my hands. I know it's important but still they hurt. Hope this flu season is short and they got the right influenza strain.

Halloween is coming up at the end of the week. Our family is ready with our costumes. The hubby and I like to dress up with the children. It's a family affair and we have so much fun. This year our daughter wanted to be a snow princess so we're dressing up like snow princesses and who can pass up being a princess for a night. Our son is going to be Yoda with my hubby being Darth Vader. We feel our daughter is old enough to go door to door trick or treating this year and she's so exciting. She's been practicing with her Halloween bucket to trick or treat. It's quite enjoyable watching her run around our house going trick or treat. Our little boy just follows her with his Elmo bucket and pretends to eat candy. So cute! Happy Halloween!

When did I get on the looney train?

I guess I hopped on the Loony Train when I decided to join a fan page for the show Jon and Kate plus 8 on Facebook back in August which lead me around the Internet to different blogs. I got sucked into the drama. I tired to get off when I wrote my entry Enough of all the Drama but I got sucked back in. Oh the humanity of it all! I think it's intriguing and so high school what's been transpiring in the Gosselin Land. A little Soap Opera drama doesn't hurt anyone until the fingers are pointed and real people are getting hurt. Lately it's getting ugly and yes you can call it a witch hunt of sorts but if people stop acting like school children and just take responsibility for themselves and what they write then it wouldn't get so weird and crazy. I don't understand such controversy of a Reality TV show can show the the ugliness of some people. Then I don't understand the self righteous blogger who implies they are perfect and how dare some people from a different blog have different views think they are in the wrong when in fact they are doing the exact same thing they accuse the other blog of doing. Half the time I am sickened by some of the things I read but then I wonder what kind of person I am for reading this crap. It's not like I'm invested or know these people behind all the blogs or care to be friends with them. I enjoy the show Jon and Kate but also I don't think the children are being exploited neither. I expect the show to be on another couple of seasons and the Gosselin clan will disappear with every other reality TV show. People will move on and find something else to bitch about. As for the TRUTH concerning this whole blog war of finger pointing, conspiracies of who is involved and the person/persons behind this all. Ha Ha that was funny as it lasted. You got your fun and now move on. It's creepy down right crazy and a little sick. Move on before more people get hurt and Innocent people get pulled into this crazy mess which shouldn't have started in the first place. It's getting personal and maybe it's been always like this in the Gosselin Land but lately even I'm getting uncomfortable and I'm rarely uncomfortable about issues and debate. It's like I'm watching some freak show in front of me and it was fun reading comments and joining into discussions here and there but what's transpiring is like watching a building burning to the ground and all you can do is sit back and watch the flames. I haven't made up my mind what I'm going to do because I guess I'm a sick twisted freak like everyone else involved from lurking or posting comments. Life is to short to be in chaos like this and the old 80's saying..Chill Out! Take care, Peace!

My Internet Lessons!

I've been new to the blogshere for awhile and came acrossed some words floating around on the internet at different blogs I've been too. At first I didn't pay attention to the words but the more blogs, forums and websites I went to these words always were included in the conversation so I decided to look these words up. Troll: An Internet troll is someone who posts controversial and irrelevant or off-topic messages in an online community with the intention of provoking other users into an emotional response or to generally disrupt normal on-topic discussion. My thought about Trolling is at one point everyone is a troll until you find a forum or online community you want to be apart of. Unless you just jump from site to site just to cause chaos for the fun of it then you are considered a real Troll. Sheeple: A word between sheep and people. An Internet Sheeple is a member of the mindless masses and share the views and opinions of the people around them. If you are a sheeple you are not an individually minded thinker. I wouldn't call someone a sheeple just because they share the same views and just because your views are similar doesn't mean you can't think for yourself. I did notice the word being used a lot during arguments between blogs with different points of view. Sockpuppet: A fake persona or multiple persona's used to discuss or comment in an online discussion group or the comments section of a blog. Usually sockpuppetry are alternate identities used as the third party who is not affiliated with the puppeteer to look like the puppet has mass support in defending their side of an opinion. How sad a life you must have where you feel you need to make different accounts and names so you can have an argument with yourself with different strangers on a discussion board. Weird! It is very interesting slang and not that I want to use them unless you call me a Sheeple. Okay, just joking. Call me a Sheeple and then I'll just call you a troll....lol! Take care, Peace!

My final goodbye to Atlantis!

This is my dedication and thanks to the cast and crew of Stargate Atlantis. I know the show is not yet over with more memorable stories to go this season but I wanted to do this early so I can have a slow goodbye to this great favorite show of mine. It made for a great Friday night of entertainment and has it's final goodbye as a TV series with 100 great episodes. Stargate Atlantis was the spin off of Stargate SG-1. An international team of scientists and military personnel discover a Stargate network in the Pegasus Galaxy and come face-to-face with a new, powerful enemy, The Wraith. The Ancients used to be an advanced human race with advance technology. They are the original architects of the Stargate network and the builders of Atlantis.

It was an adventurous 5 seasons getting wrapped up in a Scifi world exploring a distant galaxy encountering vast challenges and meeting great friends. Finding the lost city of Atlantis the team learned a vast network of civilizations within the the galaxy linked by the Ancients. The story lines confront dangers, mysteries and enemies like the Wraith who feed off human life. Each season you learned more of in dept of each character and the friendship they learned amongst each other. It was fun falling in love with some of the characters and then hating certain others but in the end they all worked together as a team to get the job done for their survival as a human race fighting enemies like the Wraith, Replicators, the Genii and also a Wraith hybrid named Micheal. Each episode would bring you farther into the storyline and drawing you into there world to explorer and fight enemies they didn't know. It was a great show and I will sadly miss it. Good news a Movie is in the works. I want to introduce some of the cast and crew behind this great series and if not for them and the chemistry between the Actor's this show would not be the success it is. Joe Flanigan plays pilot Lt. Colonel Jon Sheppard and the Military leader of the Atlantis Expedition and also possesses the rare ATA gene, which enables him to activate devices created by the Ancients. David Hewlett plays Dr. Rodney McKay and is the Chief Scientific Advisor for the Atlantis Expedition. With his quick mental reflexes he has saved the team on countless occasions once you get past his arrogant personality. Rachel Luttrell plays the leader of the Planet Athos in the Pegasus Galaxy. She serves the team well with her ability to sense the Wraith's presence and she is their alien liaison. Torri Higginson plays Dr. Elizabeth Weir and she commanded the Atlantis team for the first several years and won the respect of everyone on the expedition. She was brilliant at brokering international treaties in the U.S. Government. Paul McGillion plays Dr. Carson Beckett and was Atlantis's first original Chief Medical Doctor. He discovered the Ancient Gene in humans and was also an expert with Wraith Genetics. He had a tragic death in season three but later came back as a clone of himself made from an enemy named Micheal. Rainbow Sun Francks plays Lt. Aiden Ford and once served as second in command until he was addicted to a Wraith enzyme and went rogue. He had some guerrilla like strategies against the Wraith until he went missing during an attack against a Wraith Hive Ship. Jason Momoa plays Ronon Dex a runner for the Wraith until he was freed by the Atlantis team. With his physical presence and a now trusted member his approach is kill first and ask questions later. Before Ronon joined the team he was captured by the Wraith as a target of a Wraith hunting game. Jewel Staite plays Dr. Jennifer Keller taking over the newest position of Chief Medical Director after Dr. Beckett's passing. She has to figure out her place within Atlantis and also among the rest of the team main members. Amanda Tapping plays U.S. Air Force Colonel Samantha Carter already a veteran of SG-1 is reassigned as the Commander of Operations at Atlantis when Dr. Weir goes missing. With years of combat experience with the Elite Stargate program she provides the Atlantis Team some unmatched military backup. Robert Picardo plays I.O.A representative Richard Woolsey and was chosen to succeed Col. Carter to becomes the newest Commander of Atlantis. His crossover appearance from the long running SG-1 brings his Bureaucratic personality to the Atlantis team and realizes sometimes you can't go by the book. With special appearances by the wonderful Actor Richard Dean Anderson reprising his role as Major General Jack O'Neill and Michael Shanks reprising his role as Dr. Daniel Jackson, also Christoper Judge reprising his role as Teal'c and all from the crossover series Stargate SG-1. Over the time of the series Stargate Atlantis had wonderful Actor's with guest spots contributing to the great in dept story lines and adventure within the Pegasus Galaxy. Connor Trinneer, Beau Bridges, Michael Beach, Kate Hewlett, Jill Wagner, Mark Dacascos, Gary Jones, and Robert Davi. Including reacurning roles by Mitch Pileggi, Chuck Campbell, David Nykl, Kavan Smith and Christopher Heyerdahl. I am sorry I couldn't list all the actor's who had a guest spot seeing how their were so many of them. Thank you for your great characters and the contributing to a wonderful series. I would like to thank some people Robert C. Cooper, Brad Wright, Joseph Mallozzi, Paul Mullie, Carl Binder, Martin Wood, Andy Mikita, William Waring, Alan McCullough, John G. Lenic, N. John Smith, Alex Levine, James " Bam Bam" Bamford and countless others who worked on this show. The cast and crew who were behind the series did a marvelous job making the show the success it was. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0374455/ This link you can read all the people behind the making of the show Stargate Atlantis. It was a fun ride while it lasted. Thank you!

Ha Ha in your face Doctor's!

It's a great day in the world of me. I just got back one of my major Diabetic tests the hemoglobin a1c. An A1C (also known as glycated hemoglobin or HbA1c) test gives you a picture of your average blood glucose control for the past 2 to 3 months. The results give you a good idea of how well your diabetes treatment plan is working. Well my Doctor's wanted me under 7 but if I could lower is the best and today it was 6.5. I think I need some Candy...lol. I have to be honest I was a little scared to get this test back. With everything going on in my world containing my health I didn't know what to expect around my test. For all I know, my home testing machine could have been out of whack but it looks like my numbers were correct. Now maybe the Doctor's will start looking at other reasons why I've been going down hill lately then pointing at my out of control Diabetes because from my A1C it hasn't been out of control for the last 3 months. So they can't blame the Diabetes anymore. I don't know but I'm giving myself Hi Fives right now. I knew I could get my Diabetes under control and it's not like I didn't do it before. I do have two healthy children to prove it. I'm still waiting back for my copper test and my CBC blood count test concerning my anemia problem. Once I get them back I'll be going to get myself shot up with iron and hopefully crossing my fingers it will help with my chronic fatigue. I can't remember when the last time I felt good. Oh wait, it was right before I got preggo's with my son. Geez, that was over 2 years ago. I can't wait to start feeling better again. I think the tide has turned and I can start feeling normal again. Then again I don't know about the copper test results so who knows what that will mean if I'm copper deficient anemic or even how you treat that but any way I'm still jumping up and down in my head. Now if only Cleaning Fairies can come and clean my house. It's smiles all around today! Bless you all and wish everyone a great day! Take care, Peace!!!

I think I'm a Celebrity stalker in hiding!

Well I think I need to chill out some and take a good breath. My favorite actor at the moment is Joe Flanigan. Who is Joe Flanigan some people may wonder? He's an actor and a very good looking actor I may chime in. I first noticed Joe Flanigan in Stargate Atlantis. This is when he caught my eye and I never heard of him before this TV series so when I decided to search more information on this man it took me to all the corners of the Internet. That's when I came across my favorite blogger and Executive Producer of Stargate Atlantis Joseph Mallozzi's blog. http://josephmallozzi.wordpress.com/

I would have to say what a fantastic family genealogy Joe Flanigan comes from. I would write what I came a crossed but I won't because just the fact he has a family and he should have some privacy even though he's an actor and if you research on your own you most likely will find what I did. Plus, I'm to lazy to write what I found any way. That's my reasons and I'm sticking to that.

You can find all sort of information if you want to sit on a computer and google Joe Flanigan. I would say I have a gift for doing research on the Internet. I came across websites I thought were a little crazy and obsessed. I would say I am a little obsessed with Joe Flanigan but in my defence I don't have a website with everything Joe Flanigan. I just have this little blog to express my likes and dislikes on different topics I feel like writing about.

I never went into detective mode and never crossed the line other than going to online information on the man. I think I'm more intrigued about his family history. His Irish heritage and family contributing to this country. It was interesting to learn some of his family were a part of the Anheuser-Busch family and through marriage the Kennedy clan. I may be wrong about the Kennedy family but most of my research was at night so I could be wrong.

I also think it's was cool Joe's father was part of Bohemian Grove. The Bohemian Grove is a 2700 acre redwood forest, located in Monte Rio, CA. The membership list has included every Republican U.S. president (as well as some Democrats) since 1923, many cabinet officials, and director; & CEO's of large corporations, including major financial institutions. The grove is the site of a two week retreat every July (as well as other smaller get-togethers throughout the year). Very interesting and I never heard of it before I started my google search.

I stopped several months ago on my search of who is Joe Flanigan because I felt like a peeping tom looking into his families windows so I stopped looking for information. There comes a point where it's intruding into someones life and you didn't ask if it's okay. It started to be creepy for me and I was doing a little stalkerish behavior so I stopped. He's just a man who's an Actor with a nice family. So I'm back to looking at him from a far and will watch his career at a distance.

He's a great actor and I did watch some of his early work. Dawson's Creek comes to mind as an example. I used to watch that show and didn't even know he had a guest spot on it. I saw a clip on You Tube with him on Dawson's Creek and saw him half naked and then I was like why didn't I remember that. I should have remembered that scene at least because the guy is a hot sexy man. His wife is a lucky women to be married to a good looking man like Joe Flanigan.

I don't think my hubby has a problem that I have a liking over Joe Flanigan. We do watch Stargate Atlantis together and he knows I like the guy. It's more as a celebrity crush than anything. I will be disappointed when I won't get to watch him on a weekly basis but now I'll be watching his future career and wish him the best to his whole family and beyond.

Shout out: Joe Flanigan you rock!

If you want more information on who is Joe Flanigan go to The Internet Movie Datebase http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0281167/ and read for yourself. That's if you want to and it's not like I'm forcing you to go or anything. :) I'm done for the night so Take Care and Peace!

Do not rain on my parade!

I'm a little cranky today so bear with me here. I had my yearly blood work done this morning plus extra blood tests so I am tired, weak with a lot of crankiness and attitude having to give so much blood this morning. Diabetes and Anemia suck! Anyway, I'm just frustrated today about negative views on someones success. I am never one to tear someone down because they make more money then me, or have a bigger house, nicer car, and so on. When I see someone doing what they feel is right for their families security and future I appreciate them and wish them the best. It's so easy to fall in line with being jealous or being envious. How ever you want to look at it of course, it's not fair someone who works hard doesn't get recognition where as someone who seems to not work as hard gets everything. How fair is that you ask? It's not and that's life. It's your right to say whatever you want. No one is stopping you for putting your two cents worth in because apparently it helped you feel better in the moment. Appreciate what you have in your own life and if you think your life stinks then change it. Make choices for yourself to better your situation then hurting someone else because it's the popular thing to do. How would you feel if you were so proud you accomplished something and then strangers are telling you what a loser you are? It doesn't feel good so why would you do it to someone else? It's just funny to me reading some comments in the blogshere where adults are saying they don't hate but are concerned and are expressing their feelings on something. Well yes you are expressing your feelings and that's great but what you are saying in your expression with words sounds a lot like hate to me. What is bitching about someones character anything BUT being hateful? Would you allow your own children to treat people like this? So why is it alright as a grown adult to make someone you don't even know feel less of themselves? Is it because you can sleep at night with a clear conscience knowing you helped try to stop the evils in the world by trying to harm and hurt someones family because you disagree with the choices they made? How would you feel if a mod of angry strangers stalked you because of something you believe and then wanted to rip you apart because they JUST didn't like you? You are no better than the person you disagree with. I am all for having a voice and using whatever means to express it BUT expressing in a positive way. Try and Help to get things done and be a true advocate then being one when it just fits your own agenda. Sure you don't like something then try your hardest to fix it then bitch and moan how unfair it is. That my friend, is not being an advocate and more of someone who feels sorry for themselves. Do half of these people know what the word means to be an advocate? Sometimes I wonder. It's great to talk to people and hear what they have to say and maybe they may say something you haven't thought about. It gets you thinking and learning which I think are two good things to do. I would rather talk to someone who has a level head then someone who is talking all crazy. Most of these people who talk all hateful and crazy I just want to give them a hug. They must be lacking some love in their lives. I don't want anyone to stop having a voice or feel like they can't express themselves though blogging or whatever they feel they need to do. I'm just frustrated some people can't do it constructively so change can happen. To affect change you need people to listen so why would you think you will reach people when all you do is bitch and complain about the situation? Someone on the outside will not take you seriously. I am done today and I'm going to go and enjoy my day and my children. Take care, Peace!

You are loved Charice!

I think I am in shock. The other day I wrote a nice entry here thinking some day a family member or a friend would come and read what I wrote. On this one entry I wrote my thoughts about a singer named Charice. She's a great singer and I wanted my feelings known how much I think this girl is special. She deserved in my book a shout out so I wrote about my feelings and then yesterday I went to look who came to my blog for the day. I thought maybe at the most 3 people came by for a read but the shock came when I saw 34 people came to my blog to read my entry on Charice. I thought something was wrong with my site counter and looked where everyone came from. Wow, it was pretty cool my site was being seen from different parts of the world. Then I checked last night and more hits from around the world. Who knew people were interested in what I had to say about Charice Penpengco. Thanks Charice Fan's for coming to read my blog entry. She has a gift and a large fan base of followers and I am blessed someone thought it was worthy to post to the Charice Diva forum site. Thank you stranger for posting the link to my blog. So I'm going to help you out. Check this site out http://charicediva.com/. Anything you want to know about Charice you need to go there. She also has a fanpage on Facebook and a page on My Space. The girl is everywhere. It's nice to see so many people think she's just as special and talented as I do. I'm just one person with a voice who can make a difference. Good luck Charice and a lot of people believe in you including me.

Call me old fashion and love crazy! It's just me!

Call me old fashion in my beliefs but when I married my hubby under the laws of God I truly in the bottom of my heart meant every word of them. I am blessed in my life for him with all my emotional baggage and how he likes me for me. I have compassion and I deeply care about people other than myself. I can express myself without feeling like I have to hide who I am or feel like I have to be someone that I'm not. Like I told my hubby when we first met: You can like me for me or you can kiss my ass because I'm not going to change who I am for anybody. He choose to like me for me. I chose him because I love his heart and he treats me with respect. Their is no complicated long lists of why we are together but a simple love and respect for life, love and understanding of our wants and needs. He makes me be a better person inside and out. When I think about it now when I was younger wishing on a star in the dead of night wanting something better for me. My prayer was answered and here he is married to me. We haven't had a fight or big argument in the 10 years we knew each other. Yes that is correct, no fights or no arguments. We don't have a perfect marriage because perfection doesn't exist but we work on it every day. We have our attitudes and short spats but not anything that we consider a fight or argument. I would like to keep it like this. I enjoy my hubby and enjoy spending time with him. He's my best male friend and we talk about our life, our children and just bitch about the world together. It works for us in our marriage. I am grateful everyday we are together. The support he gives me I am blessed. Everyone has their short comings but it's not important to me on the bigger scale of things. Yes, my hubby gets on my nerves sometimes and I'm sure I get on his nerves but not enough to hurt each other. I get frustrated when I ask him to do something and he doesn't do it in my timeline but that's something I am working on. It's not his fault he's more laid back when it comes to housework and I'm like I have to get it done now not later. Lately, I've been having to put things to the side because of medical reasons and maybe this is my lesson in my journey of life. I need to realize just because things don't get done the world isn't going to end. The kids will survive wearing dirty clothes for more than one day. I'm learning to enjoy the little things in life than what needs to get done at this moment in time. My hubby gives me a soft place to fall and I can count on him for his support. He doesn't make me feel less of a person and he wants me to succeed and be happy. In return, I treat him just as good. My whole philosophy is you treat me great and I'll treat you great. It's give and take and I think that's fair. You give me love and I'll love you back. I knew he was the right one for me because something in my heart said it was. My intuition was letting me know I have to keep this guy in my corner. I think our love is pure. I know in the beginning I abused our relationship because of my stupid choices and behaviour but I asked him for forgiveness and I will never break his trust again. I learned a valuable lesson in the affection of the heart. He gave me the faith to trust my heart and give him faith he will not take this precious gift away. I'm writing like some sappy love song but it's so true. I'm not going to hide the fact my hubby and I love each other. We're partners who want to see the best in each other. If something is bothering me with our marriage then I let him know. It may take months but I eventually talk to him about it and we compromised what's best for us. I don't believe in soul mates because to me that's just fiction. I don't believe in staying in a marriage for convince. Life is too short to be in a turmoil marriage all the time. I think I believe the way I do because most of my life I was in a family where the tension was unbearable day in and day out. Then moving away thinking you don't deserve better so you find people who feed off of that tension. I don't want that kind of life and I moved away from that kind of lifestyle. I would rather wake up in the morning and be worried what to feed the kids for the day then wondering what the abusive drama is going to be next. I lived it before and I thank God I don't live like that today. My hubby and I work hard to keep our marriage the way it is because we both want the same things in life. We make choices to stay close and to work on things that need a little tweaking. I love him and he loves me. He inspires me to be a good person and I let him play golf.... :) It's good to laugh so have a good laugh today! Take care, Peace!

The wacky shows I like to watch!

At night after the kids go to bed my hubby and I like to curl up and watch some TV together. We have several shows we watch on a regular basis. We also joke who got who watching a show first. Hubby thinks he got me into all Scifi shows and he only watches women drama's because I like them. We have TIVO and I don't know what we would do if we didn't have this service. Here is a break down of some of the major shows we watch together.

Monday Night: Heroes: They thought they were like everyone else... until they woke with incredible abilities. We started watching this show from the beginning. We like it and first it's like who's good and who's bad and what is going on with Peter. This season has more questions to figure out and just something cool to watch. Jon and Kate plus 8: Documentary-style reality show about a Pennsylvania husband, wife and each of their 8 extremely individualistic children. A very controversial show. Tuesday Night: House: An antisocial maverick doctor who specializes in diagnostic medicine does whatever it takes to solve puzzling cases that come his way using his crack team of doctors and his wits. House is a jerk and I like how he screws around with everyone and his sarcastic attitude. Wednesday Night: Private Practice: A spin-off of the medical drama "Grey's Anatomy" centering on the life of neonatal surgeon Addison Montgomery Opposite of House and very dysfunctional Doctor's with more personal drama. Love the drama. Thursday Night: Good Night! Smallville: A young Clark Kent struggles to find his place in the world as he learns to harness his alien powers for good and deals with the typical troubles of teenage life in Smallville. It's Clark Kent who will be Superman! Enough said :) Grey's Anatomy: A drama centered on the personal and professional lives of five surgical interns and their supervisors. Another Doctor's show with dysfunction. I love this show. ER: A drama centered on the personal and professional lives of five surgical interns and their supervisors. I have watched this show off and on since the beginning. Friday Night: our scifi night Stargate Atlantis: The spin off of Stargate SG-1. An international team of scientists and military personnel discover a Stargate network in the Pegasus Galaxy and come face-to-face with a new, powerful enemy, The Wraith. I love this show and it could be because I like the people behind the making of the show or it could be Joe Flanigan. Joe Flaingan's character is Jon Sheppard and he's just good looking. The guy is hot which is a bonus. I would say this show has great actor's, a good production team and great stories. I am a little bummed Stargate Atlantis is in it's final season but their is always DVD re-runs and a movie on the making. I look forward to Friday nights because of Atlantis and Joe Flanigan :) Sanctuary: Stem cells, gene therapy, transplants, cloning; The very meaning of the word "humanity" changes daily in the modern world... Amanda Tapping's show. I was first introduced to this Actress in SG-1 as Sam Carter. Great actress and this is her show so I have to support her. Saturday Night: Catchup on recorded shows or Movie Night Sunday Night: Armywives: The army has its code... the wives have their own. About a woman who marries a soldier and moves her family onto an Army base, where she becomes friends with other women whose husbands are in the military. I watched this show from the beginning and is only in it's second season. I just like this show. Right now, these are the shows we watch and when Lost comes back on we'll watch it and I haven't heard about Medium but I also like watching this show too. Right now, it looks like we only like Doctor shows but that's what's good on TV right now. I enjoy that my Hubby and I like watching TV together. It keeps us close doing something together even when we're just staring at a Television set. It's peaceful enjoying each others company before we go to bed. We like spending time together if not watching TV but hanging out. We're friends too and I love that about our marriage.

Charice Pempengco!

http://www.charicepempengco.com/ I am a person who loves music. Awhile ago I watched a show on Oprah and usually I don't watch Oprah as much as I used to but this particular show was about young gifted and talented children. I love watching the talents of children and how inspiring it is that a 2 year old knows every Country in the World by pointing on a map or that a 4 year old can play the piano and so on. This show was a re-run of Oprah and she had a young girl who at the time was 15 years old and was discovered on You Tube. She was going to sing a Whitney Houston song. I was thinking good Lord I hope she can sing because it's a pet peeve of mine when a singer who thinks they have a voice butches a song from a singer like Whitney Houston. Charice grew up in the Philippines and now she was on Oprah ready to blow the world away. The moment she opened her mouth and started singing I knew this girl was going to go far in life with that powerful voice. I was speechless and on top of it crying with tears rolling down my face watching her perform. I couldn't believe this tiny young girl could sing like this. She was also on Ellen back in December 2007 which I watched the You Tube video of her performance. I just have to say..Wow with all her performances. I haven't been this inspired by a talented singer like this in along time. Yes, there are great singers but she in my opinion is at the top with singers like Celine Dion, Marah Carey, Whitney Houston and all the great Singing Diva's like Diana Ross and Aretha Franklin. Her voice is so powerful and every time I listen to her sing I cry like a blubbering idiot. The tears just flow and the emotions are of pure happiness. She's going to go places in her career and with someone like David Foster backing her up we will see a lot of her in the future. If you don't know who David Foster is go google him and then you will understand why I know she will go far in her career. Here is a link to Oprah's website where Charice was invited to sing with Celine Dion at Madison Square Gardens back in September 2008. http://www.oprah.com/media/20080919_tows_charice Geez, I can't stop crying when I hear her sing. This young girl inspires me and I feel it's important to give her a shout out and help promote her talent. She is an amazing young girl and her life story was hard yet she didn't give up on her dreams to be a famous singer. With dedication and hard work she is achieving her dreams one day at a time. On her website she has a video about her life. She is just beautiful and inspiring. I am blessed she wants to share her life story and her talent to the masses and I'm glad and thankful she lets me enjoy her voice. Go check her out and you will be surprised. You may not cry like a blubbering idiot like myself but she will just blow you away with her voice. I will be watching her career. Take care..peace!

My sick Boy!

Well I haven't been so scared like I was yesterday in a long time. Cold season started in our house this past weekend. Our oldest could care less she has a cold less much be stopped from doing anything. The flu stopped her for one day last season but she could care less her nose runs or she can't breath. She's a tough cookie and wish I had some of her spunk. Our little boy didn't seem to get all that bad with a little cough Sunday night. Yesterday morning he had a cough but I wasn't too worried. His sister has more the runny nose then he did. Yesterday was like any other start of the cold season. I did put him down early for his nap because he was all slumping on the couch and I thought his bed would be better. Half hour later I put his big sister down for her quiet time. It seemed all well and I was resting checking things out on the world wide web when I heard my son on his baby monitor. I let it pass but it got louder and he was coughing so I decided to go check him out. I walked in his room just at the moment he puked in his bed. He started crying and then he looked like he was choking and my heart just stopped. I grabbed him out of his bed and bent him over and then he puked again. I calmed him down but he seemed to be grasping for air. My poor little boy and it scared me so much at the same time trying to keep it together. I got our daughter and went down stairs and called the Dad. After I told him to come home from work I called the Doctor's office. Waiting is the worst and trying to calm a little boy down who just wants to breath and you want to help him but can't. It's so heart wrenching holding him and he can't breath and making sounds of something stuck in there. Is he coking or can't he breath?. I know he has a cold and not much Doctor's can do but this sounded bad and should I be calling 911? but then he's not purple or his lips are not blue so he's getting air all at the same time telling him he will be okay. I got a hold of a RN and she told us to stick him in a steam shower and go to the Urgency Care. He has Croup and had to get a needle shot. It was bad enough he was sick but he also hates the Doctor's office and strangers poking at him. The little boy can scream and is strong. Holding him down.. good luck with that! At the same time you just want to grab him and run but they are the professionals who know how to make your little one better so you bear with it and just hope you don't cry. Last night I thought it would be rough without getting sleep. We did bring him into our room to keep him close just in case he needed our help. He thought he could take advantage of the nice comfortable sleep in our bed but enough was enough and he was put in his own bed beside our bed. I like how kids think they can get away with more when they are sick. The hubby was firm and J finally calmed down and went to sleep ALL night long. So today I'm in super comfort mode doing steam baths and trying not to worry to much. He's back in his own room sleeping and hopefully tonight will be just as good as last night. Take care because I'm tired. Peace!

Not so private!

I got an email this morning asking me why I've been writing private personal information on my blog. They asked not to be identified so I'll respect them. I'm not ashamed of my life. It took me along time to figure out the shame I had as a teenager. I was hiding a family secret I didn't feel was right and it tore me up because I didn't think it was right my parents expected me to go along with their decisions. I had years of personal emotionally pain and is it fair for me to allow someone to make me feel like I wasn't worth fighting for? No, I came far in my personal growth and I'm an adult now with children of my own. Did I oust my parents? Yes, and of course I had to think about them when I wrote this blog. For one, I don't have a relationship with my adopted father. I cut him out of my life back in August 2001 because he's just an abusive ass and I decided I didn't need someone like him in my corner anymore. He is a selfish man who only cares about him and what he wants and will use and manipulate anyone to get what he needs. Not someone I want around me anymore. I got professional help because to achieve my goals for my life I couldn't do it on my own. I've been trying to have a relationship with my adopted mother for awhile. I have mixed feelings on her. I would love to have a friendship with her but we're not their yet. I'm not ready to just walk away. We don't talk so it's hard to actually mend our relationship. She's busy with her own life right now so I respect her for that and I'm sure some time we'll talk. Does it bother me we're not close? yes it does and I get frustrated but there is nothing I can do about it so I try to let it go. I was only a child when my family fell apart and is it my responsibility to further the secret because of there shame? My life is my life. I take responsibility for me and my family and they have their own journey to work out there own life. I asked for forgiveness for what I did in my heart and from god. I wasn't proud of some of the decisions I made in my life but I can't keep dwelling on it but I am aware of my mistakes and decisions. I will never forget. I'm not trying to sweep my life under the rug and to pretend it didn't happen. I'm not going to lie for them anymore and it's not right they should ask me to further there fake facade our family was happy. To get to know me you need to understand where I came from. Like I said I'm not ashamed of my personal private life. It's hard work trying to have a conversation with someone when you can't share something with them because you're afraid to say anything. It's hard because I may accidentally disclose something I shouldn't. I want to talk about my childhood, my mistakes and some of the crazy things I did as a teenager but when you start leaving things out because of fear it's not a life I want. I'm not the crazy one in the family and I'm sure when I was a teenager I acted like the out of control hateful kid but I was that angry kid who didn't care. I was disrespectful towards adults because I didn't know how to channel my anger elsewhere. Of course, I was angry having two selfish parents who only cared about keeping their own fake image in the community. I'm not like them and will never be. So writing about what I been though may some day help someone else. I appreciate my life and my lessons in life. I don't think I'm helping myself for keeping my past a painful destructive past. It's who I am and it's where I've been. I'm not going to live my life in fear and I may get some backlash for disclosing personal information but whoever reads my blog will understand this is my life. There is no shame in the truth. Thanks for the email and you question. Take care!

Another year of winter allergies!

Every year around this time I start getting asthma related itchy eyes and breathing problems. I guess it's because I'm allergic to dust mites. I take a drug for this but it still doesn't help being uncomfortable. If we could afford hardwood floors through out our house this would help. I can picture myself sleeping in the kitchen this winter. lol! Seriously sometimes it's a pain in the butt waking up and my eyes are all closed shut with eye crusties. I'm also allergic to grass. When I heard I was allergic to grass it came to me when I was a teenager playing soccer I didn't understand why my nose was runny and my eyes hurt and for the whole soccer season why I was itchy. It was crazy and now I understand why. After J was born I got tested for allergies because at the time I thought my health problems extended to being allergic to things. Good news I didn't have any serious allergies but learned I am allergic to dust mites and grass. To me it's just weird with these two things but what can you do. Sometimes it looks like I've been crying for hours because my eyes look puffy and blood shot. Hey, I can say I'm just an emotional person. I got my EEG test back and my brain waves are normal. That's good news and I don't have Celiac Sprue disease which was a blessing for me. I don't know if I could totally take Gluten out of my diet because I love carbs. I'm still anemic and this coming week I have my Hematologist appointment. I'm going to ask to be tested for copper deficiency anemia. Wouldn't that be cool not that I want to be copper deficient but it would rule why I'm anemic and this whole time I'm taking a pharmacy of iron which in copper deficiency anemia iron makes your anemia worse. It could explain why I've been getting worse and not better lately. I don't mind being normal and each blood test comes back saying this is great but for my sanity I want to know what is up with this anemia thing. I bought a bead magazine. Some of the products displayed in it are so beautiful but way advanced for me. I like the advertising of stores but what drives me crazy is going to websites who state they have a huge selection of beads and only show pictures and not their selection. That's not going to help me any. In the advertisement it reads online store so you think great you can buy beads or see samples of the large selection they carry and nothing. Don't waste my time coming to your website to see your nice pictures and your address. Doesn't help me when I'm in Oregon and your place is like in Maryland. It's not like I'm going to drive to your store to see your collection of beads. I want to see product people. Show me your bead selection or go away. Oh well, I'm going to Micheal's tonight to see what they carry and their collection. Hey I may pick up something. Well I'll have to end this post with my sad sorry eyes, itchy skin and I have to stop thinking of having to get my blood tested again this coming week for all the lovely monthly tests. Bla!. oh the kids are coming down with colds. How fun for me :) Take care!!!!!

I want my children to learn!

Of course, being a mother you want to teach your children basic life lessons. I have 8 main ones I think will be valuable for them. 1. Knowledge: I believe in learning and getting all the information you can by listening to others and reading books. I want my children to learn. You can only change and be a better person by acquiring knowledge and wisdom. I'm always reading and learning about things in all aspects of life. If you don't know something then go out and research it, read about it and ask people who may know. Never stop learning about things, places and people because every life has challenges and so does learning about knowledge. 2. Love: I believe in the feeling absolute kindness for all things around you. To love yourself is to live at peace and in harmony. Love is to feel and give complete kindness for all things around you. Love cannot be demanded...it must be earned and given freely from the goodness of your heart. I think love is the greatest gift someone can give and receive. 3. Respect: Showing respect is showing honor for the value of people or things through polite regard, consideration and appreciation. Respect our families, others, and ourselves. Don't hurt anything or anyone on the outside or the inside. Respect, also is not to be demanded, it is earned and from the goodness of your heart. I want my children to know how it's important to treat others and themselves. 4. Courage: The personal strength to face difficulties, obstacles and challenges. Have courage, make positive choices. Stand up for your convictions--show courage in communicating and decision-making. Do things even in the most difficult times. Be ready to defend what you believe and what is right. 5. Truth: Be true in everything that you do. Be true to yourself and true to other people. Understand it - Speak it - Live by it. 6. Humility: Recognize the human need for balance in life. Know that you are equal to everyone else. Take pride in what you do, but the pride that you take is in the sharing of the accomplishment with others. 7. Honesty: Be honest in every action and provide good feelings in the heart. Do not be deceitful or use self-deception. Honesty keeps life simple. 8. Hard work: Nothing should be giving to you unless you earned it by working hard to achieve it. Don't think you are entitled or expect others to give you things because you think you deserve it. I have lots of life lessons I want my children to learn from me like right now I've been feeling sick for awhile and it sucks at times but also things are good in other parts of my life. Being consumed with only the sickness you lose out on other parts of life that is also great. I would rather have people NOT feel sorry for me but look into their own lives and realize how well and wonderful life is for them. I want my children to know sometimes life isn't easy and out of there control at times but to see all the other great things going on in there lives. Life isn't just one thing but everything as a whole. I also believe in positive thinking, learn from mistakes and forgiveness. Forgiveness doesn't mean to forget but to let all the burden surrounding the situation release from your heart. Life is too short to be living in a negative world. I can go on and on how I want to teach my children about life and I will be there to help them out on this hard journey. Not only can life be difficutlt but also great so focusing on the difficult times you are losing out on the great times. They will always have a soft place to fall when they need me. Take care!

Munchausen’s by Internet: Faking Illness Online

Munchausen by Internet takes this concept to the realm of cyberspace, to blogging communities, social networking sites and message boards. Using different names and accounts and they can even sign on to one group as a stricken patient, his/her frantic mother, and his/her distraught son all to make the ruse utterly convincing. Fabricated reports of stalking, assault, harassment, and have been described in which the motive for the deceptions was mobilization of care and concern, and this manifestation has moved onto the Internet as well. These claims often include elements of pseudologia fantastica, in which one lies floridly about one's personal history, but in a manner that remains compelling. This is some of the stuff I've been reading about this illness. I can go on and on about this disorder but there is so much information on this it's scary. I can't believe how sick this is and I'm sad for the person who feels they have to do this over the Internet. I always felt I had to be myself online. Maybe I'm an honest person who believes if I lie and cheat I'll be judged by God. Back in 1998 I started going online to Yahoo Chat rooms and I was an online virgin as I put it. I didn't know a whole lot of the online community so I made an online name but when I started talking to people I didn't give out my life story or real name but when I met more people I did give out the basic details about myself. Why would I lie about the little things? But some people feel like they have to be someone different then whom they really are. I've seen a lot of crazy things online for 10 years now but I never have experienced this disease in particular until recently. I don't know what to believe about this because of course you don't want to believe someone can manipulate masses of people, cause blog wars and then find out it was all a fun game for a sick person. It's just sad. The exploitation of others, lack of empathy, perpetrating a general con against supportive individuals, etc. I'm not typically a suspicious person, but these articles make me realize that it's always necessary to have one's guard up from now on. I think I will stick to Facebook and maybe lurk here and there :) Take care blogworld!

Tomorrow's Test!

Well after all these Doctor's visits over the months and getting blood drawn for various tests I have my EEG tomorrow. I'm scared to death with a lot of anxiety and afraid they will find something yet at the same time I'm hoping they will find something so the Doctor's can fix me. I don't know how many times I can say I don't feel well and feel run down, fatigue and all other sorts. It's been really bad lately and my good days are getting farther in between. I keep it together because of the kids. It's bad enough my 3 year old knows Momma doesn't feel well all the time and it takes a lot of energy to get things done. The hubby has helped with cleaning and running down to the nearest McD's for dinner because I don't have the energy to make dinner some nights. I know lately the home cooked meals don't happen as often as I want but I don't want to burn out for my kids sake. You do what you have to do in a time like this. Even though it can be frustrating being so sick and rundown all the time but my kids need me to be there for them then sitting around feeling sorry for myself.

Oh well, maybe going down the Neurology aspect will get me some answers this time around of testing because my Hematologist needs to get his head out of the clouds and do more than watching my CBC numbers each month. Every few months I hear from him saying my anemia is stable and I'm thinking this guy is a moron and the reason I'm stable because I'm on a drug called Procrit. He's an idiot and will give him one last chance for him to give me answers. I will find a Hematologist who will listen to me and give me answers then being told I will have to live with this condition for the rest of my life because I say the (blank) with that. No way will I accept living my life like this for the rest of my life. I just need a smart Doctor to figure out what is wrong with me like Doctor House but without all the surgeries... :)

Oh, the bead business is coming along. I'm hoping to get some books this week about making jewelry and even getting some magazines. I'm really excited about going down this road and it will be a lot of fun. Okay, it will be a fun adventure. I promise to post some of my pieces here when I finish some. I guess when I have to sit and rest I won't be bored. Their is so much of Dr. Phil and Oprah you can watch when the kids are sleeping. Take care!

I am bead obsessive!

I am falling in love with the world of beads. I think I saved over 20 websites just about buying beads. At first finding these websites it was very overwhelming and I was thinking I was getting into something way over my head. I went to this one website called Stateside Bead Supply for some Magnetic Hematite Beads. I got more excited going through all the different colors and different shapes. I wanted to pull out my credit card and buy up all these beautiful beads and then I realized I don't have a book to learn how to make jewelry. I think I should wait until I know from a book and make sure when I do finally start making bracelets that they stay together. That would be funny not knowing how to keep a bracelet from falling apart. I really like the pink pearl beads and another one I like is the Preciosa Bohemian Cut Crystals like the Bicones. So beautiful colors and shapes. I have so many ideas and color combinations my head is spinning. I like the colors pink, blues and purples with the black or silver Hematite beads. They stand out so much. I like the magnetic strands bracelets because if you get bored with it as a bracelet you can unwind the strand and make a necklace from it or wrap it around your ankle. It's so versatile and you can change it up a little. I like the 3 tier wrap bracelets but unfortunately these bracelets don't unwind so it's what it is. My idea's for these bracelets are the same as the the magnetic strained bracelets but this Hematite bead is not magnetic. With the regular Hematite beads you basically only have a few options with color but the different shapes are amazing. I like the Swirl, Tube, and Drum shape style beads. These shapes give the bracelets some depth and I find these styles more unique than just the round beads.

WARNING: People with a pacemaker should not wear magnetic jewelry! Pregnant women should consult a physician before wearing magnetic items.

The only problem with my jewelry pieces they are not for everyone. It's a little disappointing but that's what I get for picking a bead I really love. Maybe down the road I'll find another stone bead I like just as much as the Hematite beads. Well I have a lot of research to do and reading to do before I jump into this project. I want to be prepared before I just jump into making jewelry. I think if I jumped into making pieces then I'm sure to get overwhelmed plus I want to find the right store for the best prices. I think the hubby would appreciate me finding the best deals on the good beads then spending a fortune right away and giving the hubby a heartache with a huge bill...lol

My new hobby!

Well I've been interested to do a project of some sort for a few years now but I didn't know what I wanted to invest my time with. First I wanted to learn about stain glass and do jewelry boxes but then I didn't know if that's what I wanted to do. I like stain glass and the pieces are so nice and pretty. I don't think it's in my heart to really get into it and I thought about it and I came up short of reasons why I wanted to start with stain glass so I decided to cross this project off my list. Then I wanted to try my hand with pottery and I still may sometime in the future when the kids are a lot older. Pottery is a beautiful art and I would love to learn how to do it but I went online and researched for all the basic equipment and I almost had a heart attack of how expensive the pottery wheel costs. Of course, I would want to get a very good wheel because most of the time with this particular art form you get what you pay for. I would wait until I can afford this hobby before I start trying at it. So I crossed pottery off my list right now but have Pottery sometime for the future. Then I decided about doing my own jewelry with the start with bracelets. I may do necklaces and earrings down the road but bracelets I love and never where because of the children but the one's I want to do are beautiful. Awhile ago I thought about doing this art but didn't think I would have the time and energy to start something big like making bracelets. I know I can be very creative and would do good at jewelry making but I decided to do my jewelry pieces with a twist. I researched online what type of beads I wanted to use. I decided to use the type of bead called Hematite.

Hematite is an iron ore highly popular in bead and jewelry designs. Nearly all Hematite beads on the market are man made materials, but are still an iron ore and have the same chemical make up as natural hematite. The name Hematite stems from the Greek word "Haem" for blood as natural hematite holds a reddish tint, while commercially available hematite beads do not. Hematite has been used for eons, even by pre-historic man for cave paintings. Man Made Hematite is often magnetized and used in magnetic therapy jewelry.

I am excited about this and it took me awhile to come up with something I will enjoy. With my health not doing so good and my children's smiles can only get me so far. I know as a mother you are so busy with your family and children you kind of lose apart of yourself. I am blessed in my life so making wonderful jewelry pieces will keep me forced on what's important to me. So I will keep you undated my my progress and who knows maybe I'll do just one and will hate doing jewelry and thinking it's more stressful then fun. I will never know until I try. Peace out!

Misguided and Misinformed!

I guess my point of view is thinking on the common sense side of the road. Is that good for me?, yes and if that makes me misguided on the issues and I'm misinformed on my beliefs that's my business. I think I'm quite capable to make good decisions what's best for me and my family. Everyone has free will and to think for themselves and that's what's great of being human. I never liked the idea of thinking we are entitled to have things. Working hard and fighting for what we have is the way to go in my book. I will teach my children if they want something in life it's not going to be given to them and if they want something they better work hard to get it. The same with the Government is running this Country. They feel like its all about them and their wants and will do anything they can to steal hard working tax payers money to fund their own agenda then working for the American people. I will use Abortion for example. I know a lot of people have strong beliefs about this subject on both sides and that's why I am using it for my example. I had an Abortion back in 1998 due to a rape and I was able to make the decision what was best for me at the time. I am for pro-choice on the basis of pro-life. Doesn't make sense to you but I will explain why I say that. People will believe I am a murder for having an Abortion. I believe I am a murder of an Innocent baby who didn't have a chance for a life because the difficult choice I made. I will have to live with the decision for the rest of my life. It's not like I had the abortion and everything is okay and done with. The emotions always stay with you. I try not to let it get to me because I don't want to have this one moment in my life to consume me. I don't define myself on one decision I made. I don't believe in abortions. Even thought I had one doesn't mean I condone abortions and agree abortions are right. I believe in pro-life and the moment a fetus is growing inside a woman in my opinion is when life begins. I also am glad of pro-choice. I think every women should decide for themselves the decisions concerning their own bodies. Before I signed the papers to give consent for the abortion procedure I did talk to a counselor and weighed my opinions and understood the decision I made. I was grateful I had this option and it should be a standard practice with all abortions. I didn't make this decision lightly. I know you are wondering why I just didn't go through with the pregnancy with all the options out their like adoption or even keeping the baby. I thought about every angle and every consequence with each situation. I thought about adoption even keeping the baby and every thing in between. For me, it was bad enough I was violated violently by the hands of a sick twisted man and then I found out I got pregnant because of this violence. It wasn't my choice to get pregnant but it happened. I weighted about giving this baby up for adoption but I couldn't guarantee this child would have people who would do what was best for my child. I don't even think I could even give up my baby to strangers. That was another reason I had to think about making the choice to do something like this. I had to think about my future raising a child as a single mother. I know people do this all the time. I personally know at the time I couldn't be a single mother being so young. I wasn't ready to take the responsibility to raise a baby on my own. I didn't want the long wait of 38 weeks reminded every day of being raped. It was selfish of me not to go through the torture of waiting 9 months until the baby was born. I didn't want to have to be reminded every day of how I became pregnant. I personally needed to move forward with my life. My decision was based on my emotional state if I could even go along with the pregnancy. My life at the time I needed to make a quick decision and get over the trauma and move forward with my life. I also thought about the consequences of aborting the baby. I had to look deep within myself in doing something I was strongly against. I thought about everything that goes on in your mind when you are put into a situation like this. In the end, I decided what I could live with and will give me the least amount of emotional stress. Even today while I am writing this I am a little sad. It's a sad situation I wish I was never put in and had to make a choice like abortion. I can't go back and change what happened but I also forgave myself and allowed myself to heal from this part of my emotional pain. I don't shun people who have abortions neither but with any other major laws we need to set in place stricter guidelines. I don't think using abortion as a form of birth control is fair. I don't believe in late trimester abortions but in my case being raped gave me a choice which should also be thought about. When is abortion the right decision? It needs to be thought about from all angles and make sure we meet in the middle what is best for everyone to live with. I think there is all exceptions to every rule but it needs to be defined as such because allowing pro-choice a lot of women are abusing this law. I don't believe abortion should be a procedure women can have freely just because they can. This is my story and my feelings about abortion. I want to be part of the solution and not part of the problem. The only way we can change is to talk about the real issues then accusing people their views are misguided and misinformed because the only way to be informed is to talk and so I am talking about abortion... how about you and what do you feel and believe about abortion?

My Sarcastic Life!

I think this world is going through a change good or bad I don't know. Right now, I just want to live life being Sarcastic. Taking life serious is a hard job and I don't want to do this right now. I just want to live in my quiet bubble and not know what is going on around me. Why should I care what Joe down the road does and care what kind of education my children will have? Why would I want to listen to the Government who really doesn't care about me? I just want to run with this sarcastic lifestyle. Why would I care if the Government is spending my families hard earned money to fund there own agenda and it's not like it's best for my children's future. It's a shame people have to work so the Government can screw around with the Countries money. I would like a Government salary like they have so I can fly private jets, stay in fancy hotels, have personal drivers and go on expensive vacations and not have to really work. That's the American Dream not hoping our children will have a great education and good affordable health care. I don't mind paying $4.00 a gallon for gas because why should my children have food on the table. It's not important we need to pay our utility bills because that's not the American way. The American way is scamming, cheating and telling people what they want to hear because didn't you already know. We are uneducated and uninformed society so why should we think for ourselves and ask questions? I don't want my children to learn about good values and to learn about real History because it's all ugly and full of discrimination against people so I want to fluff it up and make history fun and exciting. Why should we teach our children to make good choices and right decisions because don't you know to get somewhere in life you have to walk on people to get what you want. It's okay to break the law and to go to any country and expect to have the same rights as the citizens of the country you decided to invade with your entitlement. How wonderful is that... I have a list of Countries I wanted to live on the expense of it's people. So living life isn't a challenge anymore and maybe the Government can can wipe my butt too.