Well after all these Doctor's visits over the months and getting blood drawn for various tests I have my EEG tomorrow. I'm scared to death with a lot of anxiety and afraid they will find something yet at the same time I'm hoping they will find something so the Doctor's can fix me. I don't know how many times I can say I don't feel well and feel run down, fatigue and all other sorts. It's been really bad lately and my good days are getting farther in between. I keep it together because of the kids. It's bad enough my 3 year old knows Momma doesn't feel well all the time and it takes a lot of energy to get things done. The hubby has helped with cleaning and running down to the nearest McD's for dinner because I don't have the energy to make dinner some nights. I know lately the home cooked meals don't happen as often as I want but I don't want to burn out for my kids sake. You do what you have to do in a time like this. Even though it can be frustrating being so sick and rundown all the time but my kids need me to be there for them then sitting around feeling sorry for myself.
Oh well, maybe going down the Neurology aspect will get me some answers this time around of testing because my Hematologist needs to get his head out of the clouds and do more than watching my CBC numbers each month. Every few months I hear from him saying my anemia is stable and I'm thinking this guy is a moron and the reason I'm stable because I'm on a drug called Procrit. He's an idiot and will give him one last chance for him to give me answers. I will find a Hematologist who will listen to me and give me answers then being told I will have to live with this condition for the rest of my life because I say the (blank) with that. No way will I accept living my life like this for the rest of my life. I just need a smart Doctor to figure out what is wrong with me like Doctor House but without all the surgeries... :)
Oh, the bead business is coming along. I'm hoping to get some books this week about making jewelry and even getting some magazines. I'm really excited about going down this road and it will be a lot of fun. Okay, it will be a fun adventure. I promise to post some of my pieces here when I finish some. I guess when I have to sit and rest I won't be bored. Their is so much of Dr. Phil and Oprah you can watch when the kids are sleeping. Take care!
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