Call me old fashion in my beliefs but when I married my hubby under the laws of God I truly in the bottom of my heart meant every word of them. I am blessed in my life for him with all my emotional baggage and how he likes me for me. I have compassion and I deeply care about people other than myself. I can express myself without feeling like I have to hide who I am or feel like I have to be someone that I'm not. Like I told my hubby when we first met: You can like me for me or you can kiss my ass because I'm not going to change who I am for anybody. He choose to like me for me. I chose him because I love his heart and he treats me with respect. Their is no complicated long lists of why we are together but a simple love and respect for life, love and understanding of our wants and needs. He makes me be a better person inside and out. When I think about it now when I was younger wishing on a star in the dead of night wanting something better for me. My prayer was answered and here he is married to me. We haven't had a fight or big argument in the 10 years we knew each other. Yes that is correct, no fights or no arguments. We don't have a perfect marriage because perfection doesn't exist but we work on it every day. We have our attitudes and short spats but not anything that we consider a fight or argument. I would like to keep it like this. I enjoy my hubby and enjoy spending time with him. He's my best male friend and we talk about our life, our children and just bitch about the world together. It works for us in our marriage. I am grateful everyday we are together. The support he gives me I am blessed. Everyone has their short comings but it's not important to me on the bigger scale of things. Yes, my hubby gets on my nerves sometimes and I'm sure I get on his nerves but not enough to hurt each other. I get frustrated when I ask him to do something and he doesn't do it in my timeline but that's something I am working on. It's not his fault he's more laid back when it comes to housework and I'm like I have to get it done now not later. Lately, I've been having to put things to the side because of medical reasons and maybe this is my lesson in my journey of life. I need to realize just because things don't get done the world isn't going to end. The kids will survive wearing dirty clothes for more than one day. I'm learning to enjoy the little things in life than what needs to get done at this moment in time. My hubby gives me a soft place to fall and I can count on him for his support. He doesn't make me feel less of a person and he wants me to succeed and be happy. In return, I treat him just as good. My whole philosophy is you treat me great and I'll treat you great. It's give and take and I think that's fair. You give me love and I'll love you back. I knew he was the right one for me because something in my heart said it was. My intuition was letting me know I have to keep this guy in my corner. I think our love is pure. I know in the beginning I abused our relationship because of my stupid choices and behaviour but I asked him for forgiveness and I will never break his trust again. I learned a valuable lesson in the affection of the heart. He gave me the faith to trust my heart and give him faith he will not take this precious gift away. I'm writing like some sappy love song but it's so true. I'm not going to hide the fact my hubby and I love each other. We're partners who want to see the best in each other. If something is bothering me with our marriage then I let him know. It may take months but I eventually talk to him about it and we compromised what's best for us. I don't believe in soul mates because to me that's just fiction. I don't believe in staying in a marriage for convince. Life is too short to be in a turmoil marriage all the time. I think I believe the way I do because most of my life I was in a family where the tension was unbearable day in and day out. Then moving away thinking you don't deserve better so you find people who feed off of that tension. I don't want that kind of life and I moved away from that kind of lifestyle. I would rather wake up in the morning and be worried what to feed the kids for the day then wondering what the abusive drama is going to be next. I lived it before and I thank God I don't live like that today. My hubby and I work hard to keep our marriage the way it is because we both want the same things in life. We make choices to stay close and to work on things that need a little tweaking. I love him and he loves me. He inspires me to be a good person and I let him play golf.... :) It's good to laugh so have a good laugh today! Take care, Peace!
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