The truth is out there plus a small medical update!

Yesterday I wrote a post which to me is personal and something in my past I was ashamed with but wrote about it anyway, why? because it's apart of my life. As much as I would like to delete those things I have done in my life, it's still my life so I'm growing and learning from my mistakes. Okay, this morning I was doing my usual rounds checking my emails, what's new on Facebook, seeing what people were chatting about on a blog I follow. The usual morning stuff but this morning I decided to check the email account I use for blogger. I don't check this account often because it's only used for this account but for some reason I decided to see if the account said empty but it didn't. For the respect for the person who emailed me I won't post there email address or name. It doesn't matter really. At first, I was like cool an email. This person decided to write to my account then the internal comment section or I would have posted it. That's fine and any feedback works, good, bad and just plain crazy. Well this person had nice things to say about my blog and going into how they come often to read what I have to say. I was thinking that's nice I have a follower and then they started going into seeing inconsistencies in my stories for example JS in yesterdays posting how this flirtatious fling didn't have anything to do with love but in my blog entry called Music go here I mentioned a JS also and how my heart was broken. To clarify, yes he's the same person I was taking about but I won't say I down right lied. If you were a regular in my life at the time, I was struggling with an Eating Disorder and I was just not in a frame of mind to deal with anything but destructive thoughts. It's not like everything happened in my life was in one short span but years. Each time and each situations, feelings and emotions are different from year to year. How I felt last year is different then I feel today. How can you say I lied when you don't even know me? I write what I write and my blog isn't like a book from start to end. What ever moves me to write and share is what it is. So I'm a little pissed off some stranger said my life is a lie but then again not really. I'm not pissed off and thought it was actually a funny statement like they are analyzing my blog entries to the point they are trying to piece my own life together. Go right a head and fine with me. I don't see why I would want to start a blog just so I could write bullshit on it. I haven't written any persons names on here for my families sake and the few family who do come here already knows some of this stuff. I'm not on trial so do what you must, feel the way you do but life changes, emotions change and life is a journey and sometimes you can relapse but you do the best you can to make your life better. I work hard and I'm at a place I can say I'm proud of my personal growth from where I came from to where I am today. No human is perfect. I've lied to much in my life and hurt so many people with my deceit so who am I really lying too by writing a bunch of bullshit. These are my truths and this is me: like it or leave it. Plus, if I wanted to fluff up my blog I wouldn't be writing 98% of the entries I did but writing happy go lucky fake pieces which would be a lie. Thanks for coming! Okay, I had an appointment this morning with the Nutritionist. It went pretty well. I kind of figured how it went. I got weighted and got my blood pressure checked... still low and then the zillion questions She checked my food journal like how I wrote everything well including portion sizes. She then told me I was doing everything good and liked my blood work and then after everything said in done I got her recommendations. She wants me to see a New Psychologist just to keep getting support for the eating disorder. She wants me to gain 10 pounds which is another 400 calories. That's a snack..nothing big. Then she said good luck see you at the end of the month. That was it, no bells or whistles. Take care, Peace!