Music!

I would like to talk about how much music has impacted my life. I love singing and I don't think I'm all that good but to me music gives me hope. During the lowest times in my life I've turned to music to comfort me. I like all kinds of music but my favorite songs that stand out in my quest for peace is: Celine Dion - I'm alive Because you loved me Mariah Carey - Hero Pretenders - I'll Stand by you Bon Jovi - It's my Life Brandy - Have you ever? These are a few I listen to and I have so many like songs from Chicago, Aerosmith, Journey and I could go on and on oh another favorite singer is Whitney Houston in her old days. If I'm having a hard time or having a moment of inspiration with life moments most likely music has been apart of my healing process. Every favorite song I have has some meaning to me and most of them have a memory that goes along with each song which could be a person who impacted my life, a place where I remember something special happened or just because I like the song and can sing it. I have songs where I listen to just to cry or songs when I'm losing prospective on my goals and I listen to songs to give me a reality check. I can listen to music because it never judges and is always is there whenever you need something to lift you up. I will talk about this one song I love which is inspiring and makes me cry at times and I can sing it so it's all around a good song. It's one song on the top of my list of ever lasting lists I have. It's the Pretenders song "I'll Stand by You". Here are a break down of some of the lyrics to this song: Oh, why you look so sad? Tears are in your eyes Come on and come to me now Don't be ashamed to cry Let me see you through' cause I've seen the dark side too When the night falls on you You don't know what to do Nothing you confess Could make me love you less This part is a matter of hope for me like it was looking into my heart and trying to lift me up. I seen many dark sides of life and in this song someone else seen it too. I had many times of sadness in my life when I was younger I had nights of crying because that's all my heart could do and some nights wondering when my wishes would come true. I felt I had no where to go and I was stuck in a life I knew I needed someone to protect me and save me. So if you're mad, get mad Don't hold it all inside Come on and talk to me Hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too Well I'm a lot like you This part of the song reminds me of many nights when I was so angry with life. I was walking down a path of destruction and in this time in my life I stopped caring. You know you are in trouble when you lose all hope and don't care where your life goes or what path you take. It's a lonely place to be. When you're standing at the crossroads And don't know which path to choose Let me come along' cause even if you're wrong I'll stand by you I had a lot of wonderful people what this symbolizes to me. Gave me hope to move forward in my journey of life. They didn't give up on me when I needed some hope and love. I was broken and no matter what decisions I made for my life they backed me up and didn't judge me. This Song is so powerful to me and every time I listen to "I'll Stand by You" it reminds of how far I've come. All my lessons, my pain, my will to fight to survive and the journey was a rocky one but I made it over the rainbow.

Their is another song I'm going to talk about is Brandy's "Have you ever?" It's a song a lot of people can relate to. I know I'm secure in my marriage so talking about another man once in my life is not a big deal. My husband and I talked about this one person before. I guess you are wondering why I could bring this up because we are all human and we had lives before our marriages. Life isn't easy and marriage is hard work. I work on mine every single day. My life with my husband is important to me but I also had a lot of heartache for another man before I got married. This is the song for when I got my heart broken from this guy who didn't care for me back. This was a hard time for me and it took me along time to get over him. Damn you, JS..okay I'm just being silly now. JS was a thorn in my heart but I'm over him because I get so much more love from my husband. I love you so much! My BFF will know who I am referring to here or if not I'll mention his name you'll remember okay back to this again. Here is some of the lyrics to "Have your ever?"

Have you ever been in love? Been in love so bad You’d do anything to make them understand Have you ever had someone steal your heart away? You’d give anything to make them feel the same Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart? Have you finally found the one you’ve given your heart to? Only to find that one won’t give their heart to you Have you ever closed your eyes and Dreamed that they were there And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

This definitely doesn't refer to my husband but I know everyone can relate to this song and I'm sure we all experienced someone like this in your life. It's okay to pine once in awhile for old flames because it's apart of your history and it's not shameful to remember people who hurt you like this. It's apart of life but what you do after is the most important. It's okay to feel hurt by these people and sometimes some of these memories are good to keep close to remember why you love your partners so much. It's good to remember your trying times of heartache and pain and when it began. Not everyone will care for you the way you want them too. It just makes what you have with your partners even special knowing you love and care so much for someone who gives you back the same love. Something is special in that.

So music is special to me and has a place in my heart when I need some inspiration from where I've been to where I want to go in life. Sharing what means to me I hope will make you think what music inspires you. Peace.